This week has been a struggle for me. I keep looking back at who I was before, and wondering if I’m really any different. I keep beating myself up over things I’ve done in the past, as well as the mistakes I make now. I keep focusing on those mistakes. I keep making mistakes over and over. I had a rough day last week. I just stomped all over my self-esteem. At the end of the day I got in my car after work, and heard these words:
‘Seems like all I can see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then you look at this prisoner and say to me “son
Stop fighting a fight that’s already been won”
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
And wipe away every stain now I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed.’
Wow. It’s like God was giving me a high five. Telling me, “chin up, kid. I’m right here. You’ve already won.” I am NOT the same person I was a year ago. I’m not the same person I was four months ago. I don’t have to carry my failures. I am not a prisoner. i am a child of the almighty God. I am not perfect. I am forgiven. I am free. I am loved. I am REDEEMED!
If you’re human, and you’re struggling with this, I highly suggest listening to this song.
