I have been having a difficult time adjusting to all the changes that have surrounded me this month. One was team change – all the people I had gotten close to were now on a different team. Emotions were everywhere as I was excited about the new team, yet sad over those I wouldn’t see on a daily basis any more.
During this past debrief, my logistics partner (the person who helps me figure out how to get our squad from country to country) also switched. I was nervous about having to re-learn how to work with someone new and this person wouldn’t be on my team; so communication would have to be priority. To top things off, I wouldn’t have WiFi so researching would rely mostly on my new partner….who had never done it before.
Things weren’t working out…I won’t get into all the technicalities of it when dealing with scheduling, but basically we couldn’t find a bus to get us to South Africa, to where the airport was to get to Cambodia.
I was freaking out inside! If we can’t find a bus then we can’t go to the next country! Ah!
One afternoon I laid down during a break in the day, praying. I knew this was a time for growth. I knew He is the ultimate comforter. Lord, be my comfort and give me peace in this time of chaos. You are not a God of chaos!
Be still. Be quiet.
Instantly I sat up. I had to write these words in my journal. I don’t know what they mean..What does it mean, Lord?
We had worship that night at the cafe. A woman who played the keyboard had chosen the songs to play.
“Be still, for the presence of the Lord, the holy one is here…”
I felt a warmth inside. He was talking to me. I shared to the people there at worship what I had written in my journal just hours before.
Two days later, I still felt anxious over finding transportation. I had my team pray with me. That night, we were able to work everything out and find transportation to South Africa UNDER our budget!
God is sooo good! He goes before us to find the best path. He knew it would all be worked out and all I had to do was be still and wait for Him to take care of everything.
Over a week later, my host gives my team a paper and suggests we seek solitude with the Lord. The paper has steps and verses to follow to better understand and perhaps hear the voice of the Lord
One verse in particular called out to me:
“Be still, and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10
He’s still speaking to me. In things I read or what I hear. He’s everywhere. And He’s trying to tell me something.
Be still.
You are not a God of chaos and I will trust your path to the best plan laid out for me.
“For God is not a God of confusion but of peace.” 1 Corinthians 14:33
