We have team changes in a few weeks. Here’s a direct journal entry regarding my feelings over the change:
God blesses us with good things
So we can make a sacrifice of it
So we can place it on the altar
I have been blessed by this team and in a few weeks I will need to place this team on the altar. I want to withdraw to make the sacrifice hurt less. But I am doing a disservice to God if I do not cultivate my sacrifice.
Am I to give fruit that hasn’t been well-tended to, that I have not watered and protected from frost and pruned the branches of.
You need to take your best to the alter. What you love, what you’d want to keep for yourself, but joyfully exclaim, God you are worth more than this. This which I have tended, which I have loved, which has felt like mine, it’s Your’s.
I rarely feel the full cost of that type of sacrifice because I rarely allow others to invest in me. Because every time I do, it’s hard to give it back to God.
But what a stand against God. He has blessed me with this team, and to distance myself is to refuse His blessing. I have to cultivate what He’s given me, so when I have to give it back to Him it means more, it means everything to place it on the altar.
