I thought I had to keep going until I finished the race. I thought that no matter what doubt I had, I couldn’t voice it. I had to be optimistic all the time and see the light in every situation and pretend that the world was made up of sunshine and unicorns and rainbows and that I would be able to get to $17,000 just like that. But what ended up happening was I crashed. I hit the bottom. It wasn’t long until I realized that I wouldn’t make it to my first deadline of $5,000 let alone $17,000. I was scared and I was all alone in it. I knew I couldn’t give up, but what was the use doing fundraisers every week if they were only going to make $250, when I needed $17,000! But it wasn’t until one of my students taught me a lesson, and he didn’t even know it. Jacob asked me how my bake sale went over the weekend, so I told him. “Well, I made $250.” I said indignantly. Knowing, inside, that it wasn’t enough to get to $5,000. But his response was more than I expected. “Wow!” He said blown away. “Just from one bake sale?” As soon as he said that I realized in a heavy 10 seconds that I was looking at this all wrong. Why am I trying to analyze God’s provision? If I can be faithful with a little, he will provide more. I keep forgetting that I have to stop and smell the roses every now and then. Somehow in a month’s time I have raised over a thousand dollars! I am 8% funded for my World Race! How cool is that? I haven’t celebrated the little miracles that God has given me, so why would he give me bigger ones? So here’s me stopping to celebrate! Woohoo! I’ve raised 8% of my funding for 11 months! I have raised enough money for my first month on the mission’s field! 1 month down and 10 more to go!
