“And Moses said unto the people, Remember this day, in which ye came out from Egypt, out of the house of bondage; for by strength of hand Jehovah brought you out from this place…” Exodus 13:3 ASV
You know those days when you are triggered by the smallest things? That was yesterday for me.
Before I left home, I ended a relationship that I was in for about a year and a half. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done, and distancing myself from that relationship now, still is one of the hardest things I am doing.
He was my best friend. He was the person I went to for almost everything. He was always there. Always. For the most part during my senior year in high school, I only spent time with him. I had my girlfriends that I talked to at school, but outside of school, I was with him. Now, I am 4,860 miles away from Fayetteville, TN and from him. And, we don’t talk. That’s a big shift. That’s a year and half of running to him for comfort that I have traded in for running to the Lord first.
This is where I want to be. This is where the Lord has called me. But, that doesn’t mean it isn’t hard as heck some days. Yesterday, I walked through a crowd of people, and someone was wearing his cologne. I stepped onto a bus, and someone was wearing the same Chicago Bulls hat. If I’m being real, sorry Mom for my language, but, that sucks.
For a year and a half I was in a relationship with a guy I loved, but it wasn’t a relationship that the Lord wanted for me. Not because he’s a bad guy, but because the relationship wasn’t good for me. It took me away from the Lord. Today, I realized that if I was home I would still be in that relationship. Not because I want to disobey the Lord, but because it’s hard and I’m weak in and of myself.
The Lord knows that though, and that’s why He physically took me out of my Egypt. The place that I was choosing for myself that kept me in bondage. He called me on a nine month journey that I had to leave my family, and home, and all of my comforts, including this guy. The Lord called me here to remove me from that relationship.
But now that I’m here, in the thickness of all of this growth, the Lord is taking Egypt out of me. He’s teaching me to depend on Him. He’s teaching me that He’s my comforter and my protecter, and no human can fill that place.
But it’s hard. Growth is hard. I know the Lord has good plans for me though. He’s trustworthy. And, I believe that His plans are better than mine ever could be. That what I want isn’t as great as what He wants, even when I can’t see how, I can believe it’s true because He loves me.
Ask God what your Egypt is. The thing that is holding you in bondage. Let Him take you out of that. Obey where He leads when He says leave. And when you get there, when you’re physically away from your Egypt, don’t give up when it gets hard. Because He took you out of Egypt, but now, He has to take Egypt out of your heart.
