As I walk into 2020, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting on 2019. First off, how is it already 2020? Secondly, I am not only entering into the new year, but I will be entering into a different season of life unlike any of the others. I will be going back out with World Race with a new squad, meeting all new people with new life situations, and as a leader. The Lord is about to, yet again, rock my world and take me even deeper into the unknown.
It seems the older I get and the more I draw close to Him, the more I realize I really don’t know much about the world while also realizing how much He’s in control and therefore, I don’t have to know. I simply have to trust.
I want to clarify my statement about getting older and knowing less. What I mean is this: My assumptions that I have of people are often wrong. When I try to analyze situations and come up with thoughts or ideas, there’s always a better one. When I think I have the answer to somebody’s problem, I am generally wrong. In all these scenarios, if I am ever correct on an assumption, analyze a situation correctly, or have a good solution to somebody’s problem, the thought was never my own to begin with.
When we help people, it’s God working through us, whether we believe in Him or not. He really is in control. That’s not to say He controls us, but He gives us the ideas that end up changing the world and the words to speak into somebody’s life that is suicidal. HE does that. And if He can do that using people that don’t even follow Him, imagine how much more He can do through people that are willing to be that vessel that pours out?
So, as I reflect on 2019 and enter into 2020, I want to change my thoughts about my capability. I simply want to trust that He will use me as a vessel. A vessel that pours out His love. A vessel that does hard things, things that others may find scary or intimidating. A vessel that can do all things through Him who gives me strength -Philippians 4:13.
