The reality is setting in that I will soon be gone for almost 1 year. Away from work, away from family, away from friends.. what a change that will be, but what growth! Growth not just for me, but for the people that I’m leaving behind who I’m really close to. I always say it’s good to get out of our comfort zone’s because we tend to lose our drive when we are too comfortable. I knew from the moment I heard about this trip that it was for me. I knew this was the answer to my prayers.
Even since I was accepted, I have already been going through changes. Mainly mental changes, but training camp prepared me for the physical changes too haha. It’s hard to mentally prepare to leave everything you know, but when your faith is in God, the fear goes away and the heart for the world sets in. It’s a broken world because nobody is perfect. God has called me to have a heart for these people and to show them the love that He has for them. Knowing all this doesn’t even make me question leaving home for 11 months.
When people hear that I’m leaving, they often tell me how brave I am. To be honest, I don’t even think about that because through God I don’t feel so small anymore. I feel like I’m part of something so much bigger that it’s hard to see myself as just one person on a gigantic earth. Instead I see myself being able to conquer so much more and not put limitations on what I can do.
So with the reality setting in that I will be leaving everything I know, reality is also setting in that I will be entering into something so much bigger than me. Not to say that I can’t have this kind of an experience at home, but I will no longer have the comfort of the people that I’m used to. God is going to strengthen my soul by showing me people and places that my heart will break for, but also love. And THAT is what he’s calling me to do.
