As the days of high school come to an end and my adventure is about to begin, my heart starts racing when I think of the unknown. Will I reach my fundraising goal? Will I be able to adjust to a new culture?……18 years is a long time to get comfortable, but also a long time to forget how much God has blessed me. Sometimes I forget that my life is NOT mine!!!!When I look at my life through a selfless perspective all my nerve racking questions fizzle down into one versatile question….. “do you trust me?” It’s like I can hear God asking me that question with a little bit of irony in His voice because he knows that I will say “yes” but he also knows that a three-letter word spoke in a resounding tone is a lot easier said than done. Please pray that I can let go of control and take this verse to heart. Ecclesiastes 3:11 “He has set the right time for everything. He has given us a desire to know the future, but never gives us that satisfaction of fully understanding what he does.” I know this trip was meant for me or God wouldn’t have made me so uneasy about attending Auburn University to the point where I broke down into tears with the shaking words “wreck my life” on my lips. That’s when he saw I was ready for something BIG….something life altering and this adventure is guaranteed to “wreck my life” and transform my faith into something unshakable. I would be lying to myself if I said that I didn’t sometimes wish I was going off to college with my friends in the fall… but I must constantly remind myself that those 18 years in my little bubble are not meant to last forever. I was created to do something extraordinary..something that makes a difference…something that makes all that gifts and talents God has blessed me with worthwhile.
