It’s hard to change the world when you’re being a part of the problem. This is where I’m at right now. Most days I confuse myself. I fall into the flow of the traffic that I have been trying to redirect. It’s definitely not where the Lord wants me.
One of my leaders dropped a big quote on me the other day. “Are you a thermostat or a thermometer. Are you a thermostat that is setting the climate and affecting the world around you, or are you a thermometer being affected by the world around you?” My friends and I used to say it this way: “Act or react? Are you going to be consistent and act based on your integrity and character, or are you going to react based on what happens to you?”
Well, it’s hard to be a thermostat when you keep dipping yourself in boiling water.
“You can’t change the world when you’re letting it change you. You’re a mirror. When you’re looking at the world, you’ll look like the world. If you’re looking at Me, you’ll look like Me.” -God to me.
World, I don’t love seeing you in the mirror right now. You’re sick and dying. You’re violent, conflictive, addicted, addictive, conflicted, and self-afflictive. I need to walk away from you. Otherwise I’ll never be able to help you.
Last week, I was in an emotional hurricane , getting tossed around and beat down. I asked for pain, and I received it. A lot of it. The pain tought me a lot, and God uses it to teach others, but it left me feeling like a mess. The Lord called out and gave me a fresh perspective. The nearing “end” of the world race seemed ugly and dirty because I was looking at the world. A simple “No. Look at Me.” Has changed a lot of things. This “end” is not an “end”, but a triumphant “next lap” on the road of freedom and victory.
I think most people think of life as a time line. Birth – Death, and it’s all about the “-“. Well, it’s really more like “o”. Life is more like a circle. Everything cycles back to something else. The end is the beginning. The beginning is the end. It’s symmetrical and cyclical, whole and infinite. Each part of it is just like another part of it. Each day is an opportunity to die the the past and be born to a new future. Just have to keep running laps.
The Lord has used my love of cyclical things to tell me to finish how I began. Many months ago, I left the world I knew to chase after Christ whom I wanted to know more. I unplugged from the world around me and stayed sitting with my Father. It was a season of rapid growth as time seemed to stand still and then fade from existence. He lifted me out of the boiling water. He gave me circuits and buttons. He gave me what I needed to affect. He gave me what I needed to act. He wants to do it again.
So, back off the grid I go. The next three days, the Lord has called me to fast. Just water and His word. Just pen, paper, and prayer. Just a spot in the grass by the ocean. Just a seat in the presence of Father.
“If you don’t feel like an alien in the world around you, let Me lift you higher.” So for June, you can only find me on this blog. Gotta fly.
I have a feeling the Lord is about is about to shake this world in a big way. Hold on tight and stay tuned for what He says.
