*disclaimer: this blog is a little abrasive and contains one “F” word for dramatic emphasis*
I’m Tired.
I’m tired of my phone.
I’m tired of using it to escape the reality that’s in front of me.
I’m tired of fake.
I’m tired of this version of me that is photos and captions and likes.
I’m tired of this calculated image.
I’m tired of others having no idea who I am and what I think and what I feel.
I’m tired of people being known for their opinions instead of their hearts.
I’m tired of first impressions being about appearance.
I’m tired of the way we interact through our phones.
I’m tired of feeling judged for every word I say or type.
I’m tired of our focus on competition before community.
I’m tired of evil and sin.
I’m tired of hearing bad news.
I’m tired of seeing people’s pain.
I’m tired of people being victimized.
I’m tired of people doing bad things.
I’m tired of sexual assault.
I’m tired of racism.
I’m tired of discrimination.
I’m tired of inequality.
I’m tired of unfair treatment.
I’M FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE HATING PEOPLE AND PEOPLE HURTING PEOPLE.
I’m tired of these things not being talked about enough.
I’m tired of hearing people joke about these things.
I’m tired of the world being broken and messy when it doesn’t have to be.
I’m tired of finding no solution.
I’m tired of things not being easy.
I’m tired of the daily ups and downs.
I’m tired of seeing poverty and complaining about my phone.
I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself.
I’m tired of thinking any struggle is greater than another.
I’m tired of not being able to totally identify with people I want to help.
I’m tired of things dividing people.
I’m tired of over-complicating everything.
I’m tired of not knowing how to inspire others to change.
I’m tired of watching life.
I’m tired of not making the most of each day.
I’m tired of not making the most of each friendship.
I’m tired of not making the most of time with family.
I’m tired of feeling guilty for all these things.
I’m tired of saying “choose love and choose Jesus” while people don’t do it.
I’m tired of knowing that’s the only true way to change anything.
I’m tired of it being easier said than done.
I’m tired of us falling short, being hypocritical, and making Christianity look false.
I’m tired of people judging our perfect God by the imperfect people who follow Him.
I’m tired of not knowing how to help people see the truth.
I’m tired of questioning the truth.
I’m tired of doubt, fear, and shame getting in the way of my faith.
I’m tired of feeling so small and incapable.
I’m tired of knowing God says otherwise.
I’m tired of praying.
I’m tired of reading the Bible.
I’m tired of asking God to help me with the same things so many times.
I’m tired of waiting in silence sometimes.
I’m tired of wanting to change the whole world all at once.
I’m tired of knowing I can only help one person at a time.
I’m tired of expecting myself to be perfect.
I’m tired of forgetting how much God loves me.
I’m tired of forgetting that nothing I do can change that.
I’m tired of forgetting that Jesus took all our sin away.
I’m tired of forgetting that’s the only thing that matters.
I’m tired of knowing this truth, yet not feeling any less tired.
I’m tired of being tired.
I’d rather celebrate.
Every beautiful thing.
Every beautiful person.
Every friendship.
Every family member.
Every fellow man and woman.
Every lesson learned.
Every good idea.
Every kind word spoken.
Every person who fights for equality.
Every person who does what is right.
Every person who speaks and acts against what is wrong.
Every time love overcomes hate.
Every time healing overcomes pain.
Every time joy overcomes sorrow.
Every victory.
Every triumph.
Every success.
Every time we remember Jesus died and overcame the grave for us.
Every second of every day that God spends loving every single person on this planet and wanting nothing but a celebration of that love.
No matter how bad things get, there is always something to celebrate.
Let life be a celebration.
