Well it’s starting to come to an end, month 5 in Botswana that is. When we first got our set-up sheet for this month I was beyond excited for multiple reasons. The main reason being that every single day of ministry was nothing but evangelizing. I thought to my self “heck yea, I’ve been waiting to grow in this area since the beginning of the race!” I don’t have a problem going up and talking to people, it’s the going up and talking to people about religion that I struggle with. But with me having 20 plus days of evangelizing I had no other option but to grow in this area. What an exciting month and a crazy growing month in evangelizing right?!
The first day we had orientation, the next 3 days were full of evangelizing and I even got to be a part of someone accepting Christ into their life! Daggum was I beyond excited for this! 4 days in and big things were already happening! On the 5th day things took a major turn I never expected, I was literally knocked off my feet and right onto my butt. I wasn’t able to walk without being in pain and for those of you who read my last blog already know it was because of hook worms. Something that I’m still struggling with, today marks day 14 of not being able to walk and not being able to do ministry. And in more news we leave next Wednesday marking only 3 days of real work for me this month.
When I talked to my mentor, Amy Heitzman, she said that this situation reminded her of the book of Job. Job went through a countless number of horrible events and kept his faith throughout every bit of it. In Job 13:15 he even says “Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him.” I’ve been annoyed, frustrated, irritated and there’s even been times where I’ve been pissed off. I’ve asked God several times “God, please heal me so I can go out and talk to people about You!” And on 3 separate occasions I was carried, yes physically carried, out of the clinic with bad news. Throughout all of this I tried my hardest to keep my faith high and strong trying to see that God had something in store for me. My personal plan this month was to grow in evangelizing, God’s personal plan however was for me to grow in humility, intimacy with Him, more trust within Him, and even rest. I can honestly say that this month went down a different road than I could’ve ever imagined.
I figured out this month that even though I thought my plan was way better than His, God’s plan is truly better than mine and always will be!
