In my last post I talked about me leading worship which consisted of me attempting to sing and playing the guitar in front of my entire squad, leaders, mentors and coaches. I also challenged everyone to become vulnerable in whatever way makes them feel vulnerable. Do I think that you should be vulnerable with everyone you meet? Definitely not. Do I think that there’s a time and place for being vulnerable? Definitely yes. I didn’t want to share this in my last post because I wanted everyone to somewhat learn the lesson that I learned. During the second song I played the video I was watching to see the chords and pretty much watch how to play the song stopped. I closed my eyes for 2.5 seconds and just play for our Father and the music in my ear just stopped which caused my heart to go from beating a thousand times a minute to a complete and dead stop. My heart flat lined and I panicked but I knew I couldn’t stop and ruin the intimacy with the Lord. What seemed like a lifetime was only a few seconds of panic and me asking God to give me the strength I needed to push on even though I thought I couldn’t play the song without the video to copy.
I received compliments on the second song more so than the first one and I couldn’t figure out why. I had a one on one with my leader Drew and mentor Austin(at separate times) and they both helped me realize the same thing. I was using those videos as a crutch and a dependency when in reality if I just trusted God from the beginning I would’ve realized that I didn’t need those to worship Him. That was God’s way of teaching me to once again lean towards him more than I lean in any another direction. As my second month is beginning I’m learning more and more everyday to trust God more and more everyday. So I ask the question to you, is there something you’re leaning on instead of God? Take that crutch away and steer towards God and only God and than just prepare for the fruits to come out of your obedience!
