I’ve tried to sit down and write this blog post over and over again.
What is it I want to say?
Do I talk about all of the emotions that I am feeling?
I’m scared. I’m excited. I’m terrified of the change. I’m so ready to be doing something new. I’m sad to leave my people. I’m so happy to see my other people. I’m discouraged I am going to be missing so much while I’m gone. I’m so stoked to see everything I am able to be a part of over the next year.
Do I talk about my packing list?
It’s overwhelming and underwhelming at the same time. This is all I have for the next 9 months. Am I going to want something else? Am I forgetting anything? Do I really need that much? Is there too much? Should I bring all of this?
Do I share something else that God is teaching me?
Trust. Patience. Peace. Trust that He has everything in His plan, and even if I don’t know it all, that’s fine. Patience that I don’t have to know everything right away and that I need to be patient and be where I am in the moment and not constantly looking for the. Ext thing. Peace that leaving is a good thing, even though it will be hard, it is going to give so much room for growth in so many people.
Do I talk more about fundraising?
I’m currently still around $3,000 away from being fully funded and I am so thankful to everyone that has supported me both financially and prayerfully. And you anonymous donors, I see you, and thank you.
Do I share about how I am continually awed by God?
India and Nepal were just hit with a massive storm leaving 1,200 people dead and millions homeless. Originally, this route was to China and Mongolia but back in February switched to India and Nepal. Let me just say that when we got this message, many were not too excited (Log, I am looking at you), but God had this all in His plan. Now we are able to go help with relief efforts. We can share with the people that seem to have lost everything, they can hold onto a faith with Christ. Please keep all of these people in your prayers.
Do I talk about what I am doing in my last few days at home?
I’ve gone out with friends. I’ve watched Sing about a thousand times with my niece. I’ve had family dinners, celebrations of holidays, movie nights, building forts, and finishing getting all of my stuff together. I’ve made very few really structured plans so that I am able to hang out with as many people as possible, so if you would like to get together before next Thursday, let me know!! I’ve worked on reading a book on prayer that was given to us. I’ve been working on the homework we had to get done before Launch. I’ve spent hours talking to my squad about which pants to bring and if something fits dress code and movies and music we want to download and cameras and the crazy temperatures we are experiencing or sharing prayer requests or praises and talking about pretty much whatever. I love them all to death.
Do I answer some questions?
What are we doing? I don’t know.
Where will be be specifically? I don’t know.
Will any teams be together? I don’t know.
Do you like the food? I don’t know.
Am I ready? I don’t know.
What is going to be hardest about the trip? I don’t know.
Are we going to have team switches? I don’t know.
Are we going to be going on adventures? Goodness I hope so.
Am I going to bungee jump off Victoria Falls in Africa? You bet your bottom dollar I am.
I am excited. I am nervous. I have spent countless hours preparing for everything yet feel like I have so much more to do. So many things are going to happen, and I am going to miss a lot. God is going to continue teaching me and my squad tons of lessons about Him, ourselves, and others. I am spending as much time as I can while I’m still home enjoying the life I have and preparing for the crazy new life I will soon be calling normal.
God is truly wonderful, and I am so ready for this wild, crazy adventure He is taking me on.
Please keep my squad in your prayers.
