I stepped out in faith and obedience coming on this journey. So far, it has been the hardest thing God has ever called me to do. I’ve been asking God the questions, “Why am I here? And, where is this going?” When you climb a mountain, you may not be able to see the top, but can look down and see how far you’ve come. I don’t feel like this journey is a mountain for me, so far anyway. I feel like God led me into a wilderness called the World Race. And I’m thirsty.
Today, God reminded me of Israel’s battle against Moab (2 Kings 3). God led the Israelites through the wilderness on their way to battle Moab, but on this journey, they ran out of water in the wilderness. This led them to question God and why He would lead them to die. But God spoke. Through the prophet Elisha God told them, “God’s word: Dig ditches all over this valley. Here’s what will happen—you won’t hear the wind, you won’t see the rain, but this valley is going to fill up with water and your army and your animals will drink their fill. This is easy for God to do; he will also hand over Moab to you,” ( 2 Kings 3:16-19, MSG). Digging ditches in the desert is not an easy task (not that I have much experience), but it’s probably very tough. That is what this race has been a lot of so far. I’m digging ditches—of trust, vulnerability, uncomfortableness, abandonment, and many other things. I’m asking God to fill them up. I want to overflow. I do not know where or when God will fill these ditches with His living water, but I do know that God has called me here, and that He is faithful. I am choosing to press into the hard. I know God will fill me up.
Some days I feel like nothing, like I have nothing to offer. But I am reminded that God LOVED nothing, because from nothing, He created ALL. I have no confidence in my human self, but because of Jesus Christ, his death on a cross and resurrection from the dead, the Holy Spirit lives in me. I can be confident in Him, and continue to dig ditches in this wilderness, with complete expectation of the water to come.
