I’ve struggled a great deal recently with completely relying on the Lord for financial support. My natural tendency is to crunch the numbers and nearly kill myself doing what I can to make things happen on my own terms. I’ve learned over and over that ultimately I’m not the provider for where the Lord sends me, he is. During my two years in SCSL I was able to put myself in a space of complete financial trust in the Lord, and it was easy to do because of the environment I was surrounded in. Now, however, I find myself once again surrounded by a very real world that keeps the mindset of trusting no one but yourself. I’ve spent countless seconds, minutes, and hours adding the numbers and doing the math, trying so desperately to come up with the money on my terms, laying out plans and ideas for fundraising, thinking, if I cut this here, I can add that here, and on and on. I’m ashamed, though, to say that in all this calculating and preparing for a trip the Lord is sending me on, I’ve left him out of the planning. I’ve known the freedom of being financially secure under a parent’s care, and in the same way, I’ve known the freedom of being financially secure under my Father’s provision. And though he has to keep reminding me of this freedom, I’m excited for what it brings.
The total cost of this trip is $14,951. I don’t think I’ve ever even counted that high in one sitting. This covers the cost of travel, lodging, food, and medical insurance. I need to have $5,000 by June 16, $10,000 by August 25, and the final amount by December 30. I leaving in 6 months, and I’m freaking out (mostly with excitement). This is going to be my life for nine months. Crazy. I need serious help, in more ways than one, getting here, though. I am sending out support letters, but if I haven’t sent one to you and you would like one, just let me know. If you’ve just come across my blog and you’re thinking, “I don’t know this girl, she seems a little crazy, but I like her spunk,” and you feel led to donate, please know my appreciation is beyond words. Even to those who cannot donate financially, please be praying. This is a huge step on faith, and I could use any and all prayer.
This is a crazy opportunity, and I’m so incredibly excited for what the Lord is going to do on this trip and in the time leading up to it. Thank you to everyone in advance for any and all support.
With love
