As you probably already know, its been a rough last few years. From being extremely depressed, to doing drugs, to developing anxiety, to being somewhat suicidal, and then on top of all that, being sent away from everything I know to rehab and then all the way to Oregon for 3 months in the woods. I’m not telling you this because I want you to feel bad for me but instead I’m telling you because I want you to celebrate with me. Sounds weird right? Why on earth would we be celebrating all these hardships? Ill tell you why.
I was in an extremely dark and low place during those 3 years. I strayed away from the only thing that would bring me peace, and that was Jesus Christ. I shut him out completely. I was even to the point where I didn’t think there was a God. I completely pushed him and anything to do with him out of my life. But God didn’t leave my side. He stayed right by me the whole time, pulling at me to fall into his arms. But I kept fighting it. I didn’t want to have to rely on someone or something else. God kept speaking to me in little ways showing me he was still there. God says “I will never leave you or forsake you.” And I experienced this promise first hand.
I am currently in a very healthy and thriving relationship with God and it’s amazing. He continues to show himself to me every day and it’s so cool to see. So to whoever is reading this and is going through a similar situation, just know God will never leave your side. He is so good and so loving. No matter how far you stray, he will always be there. And if you’re currently in a really dark place, I know the last thing you want to hear is “Gods the only way to happiness.” Because that was me. But please listen. It’s the truth! I encourage you to take a leap of faith and lean into God. For me, it was the best decision I have ever made and I can promise you whole heartedly you will say the same after you do decide to give God a try.
So now do you see why we should be celebrating? God literally brought me from feeling so low and so dead inside to feeling alive. I was lost and He found me. He deserves endless praise for this. If you think you’re not worthy of the endless love of the Father then that’s the enemy telling you lies. YOU ARE WORTHY. You are a child of God. Why not give it a try? You won’t regret it.
