I always believed that I trusted God to do what he knew was best for me, this month I realized I didn’t. When we got to Ukraine and learned what we would do i found my self scared. Which is a big deal for me, I faced my fears before and talked about fear and how I don’t let it control me anymore, but God looked at me a saw the fear i still had. I am afraid to show weakness to others, I afraid to put all of my trust in God. That is until the race started.
I already told you guys about my first tattoo in Romainia, and how I learned that my weakness can be my strengths. I believe that true strength shows when we are weak and it takes strength to show weakness when we are strong.
Now I have just gotten a new tattoo. It’s a tree and it reads Jeremiah 17-7 ” blessed be the one who puts his trust in the lord, his confidences in him. The tree and it’s roots represents that if we grow our roots in him we can put our trust fully into him.
Now as i said I was scared for this month of ministry, we went to schools and talked to them about us and our lives. For some reason I was worried about what people would think about me and I didn’t want to do it, but I did. my first 2 days I was with Sara Mac, my squad leader, she took the lead and I only answered a few questions. On the 3rd day I was put in to a class by myself, my heart was pounding, but I heard God tell me to trust him….and I told him “I can’t”.
As I started the class it went slow. For the first 5 min non of the students said a thing, but then one asked me about my tattoo on my arm, and I explained what it ment and then it just clicked, they started asking questions about me and America it went amazing then I had another class by myself. As I was walking out of the school, I heard God just say “do you trust me now?”, sadly I had no respawns.
The next week we had English school to teach and once again I was worried about how it would go and once again I sat back the first day and watched John Mark take the lead (and he did amazing by the way) but the second day we had to move some things around, and I ended up by myself for a class, I looked up at God and was like ” are you for real right now?” And it went amazing, after that I got into a good tempo, and the rest of the classes went amazing me and John made a awesome team.
once again I sat at home and God simply asked “do you trust me now?” This time I said yes. This tattoo is to remind me to be the tree and plant my roots in God and ALWAYS trust what he has for me.
