Battambang is finally starting to feel like home! We had finally gotten set into our ministry’s and they are grand. In the morning’s getting up at 5:30 am has never been harder as well as mentally waking up. Me and my teammate Alex were expected to whip up about 60 eggs. Each morning was spent blasting Frank Sinatra with me scrambling eggs like a machine and Alex whipping and preparing them batch by batch. We may have had a few mornings where a few egg shells made there way into the bowls. Our minds had not quite woken up you could say. However while I had my doubts about the kitchen and my placement in it I found joy making food for a week in the kitchen serving my team. Giving them energy to go do gods work made me feel important and I loved being under the gun trying to get good cooked in time.
The next week we had been doing outreach as you can see these cute kids love our teammate Joe who claims he is “bad with kids” but we’ve all seen fruit bear threw him in this area greatly. This is where you can tell Cambodia as a country is really broken, with the children. They cling to you as they have never felt nor heard words of affection before or at least not in their everyday life’s. One man lets us into his home everyday. He has cross beliefs between Buddha and god. He is very warm and loves us to come talk with him at his home and play with his kids. We tell him the overwhelming love as well as prosperity god has for him and his family as he is scared he will loose his home.He’s been faithful enough to share his past good and bad. We pray for him every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.
We also go from temples to temples talking with the monks. Most know very well English as well as some knowledge of American culture. As you dig into there personal life’s you can see their reasoning in why they choose to follow such a legalistic practice. Their family’s are broke as in money and some are broken with hearts with no where to turn or no one to take them in. I love sharing the gospel with them even if they don’t understand. We try our best each day to minister to them showing the love of god through a bright face and for our love we have for gods people regardless of difference. They are amazed we are here and why we choose to come here which only adds to our testimony of gods fearlessness he has put in our hearts and love.
Most of all god has been working on me the most as of now. I thought I was really the man I had become going through several lifetimes of pain and learning only to learn when it comes to gods plan for me I know nothing and my earthly flesh fails no matter how much I’ve learned patience, kindness, and a servants heart. He keeps challenges in my life so I continually crawl back to him clinging to him as a child as I fall and stumble on this narrow path. But the thing is I’m the one who normally will figure it out eventually. Of course god helps but I’ve realized I haven’t let his plan ever follow through entirely and I can see where it has stunted my growth. I’ve finally handed over the wheel to my own destiny to him. Realizing I can’t rush his timeline/delay it and his timing is Precise. That his love for is overwhelming and has gotten me this far which in itself is a miracle. He wants more for me because he is jealous and wants all of my love and intimate time with him. Since I’m halfway around the world because of him I’m diving right in. Ready to be broken, molded, and re shaped like never before. I’m ready for him to make a complete man. Not just a man but a man of GOD and AMBASSADOR and WARRIOR of Jesus.
