This first month I have had some things spoken over me that I didn’t see myself.
While at launch in Atlanta, GA, My team leader/teammate/friend Ally, and I were praying for one another. After our prayer she looked up and said I kept seeing the fruits of the spirit while praying for you.
I automatically did a self evaluation thinking where are those fruits she saw??
I tend to not believe good things said about me, I automatically think they saw wrong or heard wrong, I just don’t believe those things easily. I would rather be hard on myself and believe the lies from satan that I am NOT a chosen daughter of Christ with gifts for His kingdom, that is loved with God’s insurmountable love. A love that I could never earn. But yet I act as though it needs to be earned.
So when something good or encouraging is said over me I might think, wow, I might have gifts to give, I might actually be useful in God’s kingdom and my community, but I get stuck thinking they aren’t really there I am just a fraud. They don’t know all the bad fruit I also bear.
Something else that has been spoken over me by my team is that I have a heart of compassion. I thought….Do I? Because again I look at everything lacking compassion in my life. Rather than the truth spoken over me.
I’ve always been very hard on myself. Thinking negatively of myself and all my shortcomings rather than the gifts God gave me to use.
I’ve been dealing with that a lot this first month. Also comparing myself to my amazing teammates, which just makes me much harder on myself.
But I realized I dwell a lot on my flesh shortcomings and not who I am in the spirit. And it blinds me from who I am really created to be. I’m currently learning to claim who I am in the spirit, when all the lies flood in. I can combat them with the truths of who I am in the Spirit. Who God says I am.
I am excited to clearly see who I am in my heavenly Fathers eyes. I’m not fully there yet. Time to take off those blinders and use these gifts God has given me to use.
I can start to see that I am a daughter of compassion and I want to use that and not hide it under a bushel where it can’t be used or seen. Also if I see who I am in the spirit, I would be able to see the fruits of the spirit, and grow in them. It’s time to take my focus off my flesh and put my focus on the Holy spirit, and who I am in the Spirit.
Are there areas you are struggling to see yourself in the spirit because your flesh is blinding you? I challenge you to claim who you are in the spirit not who you are in the flesh. That is no longer who you are as a daughter or son of Christ. That is no longer who I am as a daughter of Christ. I know I need to do this in order to truly grow.
Ephesians 2: 8-10 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not for works, lest anyone should boast. FOR WE ARE HIS WORKMANSHIP, CREATED IN CHRIST JESUS FOR GOOD WORKS, WHICH GOD PREPARED BEFOREHAND THAT WE SHOULD WALK IN THEM.
