People around me: “God works in the uncomfortable. It’s in those moments that we see God’s presence most in our lives.”
Me: “Yeah but like…. it’s uncomfortable..”
Operating in the uncomfortable is truly when we see Him operate the most and also when we see Him work the most in our lives; we see Him operate in things we could never have done on our own. In those moments we have no choice but to glorify Him.
When you’re given an opportunity to do something that is out of your comfort zone, do it. God puts us in all these situations where things may be uncomfortable but if we walk by faith that he will carry us through it, we can glorify Him all the more through it. God is leading you in the right direction. He will carry you through it.
While on the Race, God places each and every one of us in a place where we will be uncomfortable in one way or another. For me, I have never been much of a loud, outspoken person. I think this is a quality that I got from my Dad. I am more than content just sitting in the background and listening to people, chiming in (sometimes) if I ever feel like it is necessary. One of the biggest pieces of constructive criticism that I have gotten is to speak up and say what is on my mind more. People speak over me and say that my words hold weight and this is something that I have never really realized or thought of because I always considered it to be selfish to think that of myself.
Since leaving in January for the Race I have been asked to speak/preach a message in front of people twice. One time was just in front of our squad and the next was in front of a small congregation of people in a church on Good Friday. Good Friday! This is like.. a super important day. This is something that I am just so uncomfortable with that I don’t even have words to describe. Personally, it is not so much the content of my message that I believe is inadequate but I feel a little bit like Moses. I love the studying aspect of it but not so much the public speaking aspect. However, both of the times I have spoken people have reassured me that my speaking was good and clear and the words flowed well. This is God. I have no other explanation because in my head I felt like my notes were going to shake right out of my trembling hands.
With India approaching, we have been told that much of our ministry will involve us speaking/preaching in many situations and I ask that you continue to pray for me throughout these times and this month and that He will continue to force me into the uncomfortable where I can be confident that God is carrying me through.
God bless.
