Well, it’s been six months. Six months of living in America again. Six months of living near family and friends. Six months of figuring out life on my own. Six months of constant changes. Six months to process last year. Six months of living a completely different lifestyle!
Dare I even say it, six months of…distractions!
Our leaders warned us about this last year! They said we would come home changed, and yet we would still feel this tension of being the person we were before the race, of becoming comfortable again, of becoming easily distracted. Honestly, there’s just so many things to do, so many people to see, so many opportunities to invest my life in new ways.
I’m learning that I have good intentions as I rebuild my life back home, but sometimes I lack the discernment between the world around me versus who Christ is in me. And the life I’m living now after the race is just as important as the life I lived during the race.
It’s a continual process of slowing down, spending time with the Lord, repenting of sinful tendencies, serving others that He has placed in front of me, being content in my circumstances.
Perhaps, like me, you’ve been distracted lately.
You’ve felt unsatisfied.
You’ve lost your way.
But isn’t that how God works?! He uses the different seasons of our lives to convict us of all that distracts us. Of all that distracts us away from Him.
I’m thankful for that conviction.
I’m thankful for a God who sees sin and its distractions for what it really is – distance from Him! Distance from heaven!
I’m thankful that in every season, while I seem to struggle, He always remains faithful.
I’m still processing last year, how to live now, and trying to figure out what’s next. But one thing is for certain – I’m letting go of all the distractions!
Give me Jesus. Now. In the next season. Forever.
And here I confess:
Jesus, I love you more than…
Myself, my family, & my friends.
Jesus, I love you more than…
My past, my present, & my future.
Jesus, I love you more than…
My home, my job, & my dreams.
Jesus, I love you more than…
My comfort, my fears, & my insecurities.
Jesus, I love you more than…
My body, my hobbies, & my talents.
Jesus, I love you more than…
My independence & my understanding.
Jesus, I love you more than…
America, traveling, & adventures.
Jesus, I love you more than…
Anyone & anything in this world!
Let me only be distracted by You!
Your servant,
Melissa
“Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain.
Turn my eyes away from worthless things…” Psalm 119:36-37
