Blog #2 of the week! This one’s more of a journal entry than anything else, but I hope it still speaks to you and allows you into part of my journey!
I’m restless. My fingers shimmy over the keyboard, forgetting their long remembered places. It’s only 5 am but I’ve slept for 9 hours already. Get me out. I need to do something. Let me sleep. I don’t want to move. It’s too hard. India is too much. New teams are too much. I’ve lost my closest thing to family here. I feel so alone. God is good. This place is safe. The Lord’s peace rests here, I know it. God picked me specifically to come here. He knew what he was doing. The food isn’t spicy. I have a bed. And a blanket. It’s raining. I love the rain. I miss home. Chicago was so good. Melanie, you’re doing so good. Less than 3 months left. You are doing the thing you’ve always dreamed of!
Soak it in. Soak it in. Soak it in.
Drifting
Lost at sea.
Don’t go too far
It’s a trap.
One step too far
And you’ll lose your
Mind.
Have control, take control.
The future is dangerous
The past is haunted
Dreams.
The anchor isn’t strong
Enough.
Steady
Steady
Steady
You’ve gone too far, it’s over
The anchor broke. You’re lost at
Sea.
Waves
Encapsulate
Man
Overboard
He couldn’t stand it any more.
The waves too high
The boat too small
Flooding
Drowning
Panic
Fear
Let me go too. Let me
Go.
I am no captain.
Jump
Jump
Jump
It’s my ship.
Take control.
I Can’t.
Steady- no.
Sinking
Sinking
Sinking
