Moving from country to country every couple of months. I expected it be quite different from one another. What I didn’t realize is how there is a distinct list of little blessings, funny moments and cool God stories that describes my time in each country. And no list looks the same because each country is a new season with new people, new culture and new everything basically. There has been a list for the past three country’s that distinctly describes my life and now there is one for Cambodia too. Our time here has seemed as if it’s gone on for ages but also that we arrived a day ago. The Lord has given me so many opportunities and blessings in this country and memories that I will share with my kids someday, far in the future of course.
During the weeks I had a hard time seeing this list of things. My weeks usually didn’t surprise me and I began to fall in to the mentality of this is reality now, it’s the same everyday and nothing new, it’s just a life in all normalcy. But looking now I notice how much I missed In the moment, yes it is my reality but even reality can offer blessings, excitement, abnormal little things and more. Even a life with Jesus doesn’t always look like an adrenaline rush or a crazy moment but life with Jesus is admirable, because he is always shaping us from the inside out even on the mundane days. Even those days I can see exactly where the Lord stood on that day. It’s been a month of learning to look deeper into my daily life that didn’t seem to be special at the time but to sit and ask the Lord where he stood that day.I can assure you that he was and always will be there working in all kinds of ways; whether I see it or not. He is teaching me to look up and look to him more, to notice his presence.
If I’m being honest with you I came into the race walking in immaturity, expecting every single day to be a rush or something crazy but it has not looked like that in the slightest bit. I came on the race because I wanted to escape the mundane life or an 8-5 job to find something more for my adventurous soul but even miles away and different cultures I still have a lot of days that seem very mundane. I used to think if your not living your life adventurous enough or not doing the same every day then your simply not living right. I thought you couldn’t be happy on the days that looked the same because you would grow bored and weary. But I’m beginning to think I was really wrong on that because as awesome as it would be to live every single day in adventure that we expect is the standard of adventure, we would get drained and tired quick. We would begin to lose sight on Christ because we would idolize our soul craving for more adventure and not more Christ in our life. Our hearts would eventually grow weary of that too because if were always looking for more from the world then we will never be satisfied. I’m also learning that there is a difference of a mundane life with Jesus and one without him. The life lived without him is never fully satisfied because they are not reaching after the fathers heart because with the Fathers heart he gives you his eyes to see and the desires of your heart; he would begin to align your heart with his and peace would over take you. Without his clear sight for your eyes, you would miss what he is calling you to do or the smallest blessings on that normal day. There would be no time to recharge or rest with sweet Jesus and Without those days of what may seem like a day of the same old same old then it would be hard for us to continue on because our souls demand rest. And rest with Jesus is the best kind because it’s refueling. Now I am thinking that if your not living your life with the father then your simply missing out on life completely because there is so much that comes with a life devoted to Christ.
Looking back at the beginning of Asia when we first arrived in Cambodia before crossing the border for Thailand I thought to myself I will never make it, only four months you can do this Megan. However I didn’t make it through our time in Asia, not alone anyway. With the Lord guiding me and blessing me, opening my eyes and heart I fell deeply in love with this place and the people here. Most days in Asia we did the same thing every day. At first it was hard because I craved more craziness, more adventure at least that’s what I thought I craved but down deeper I really craved intimacy with the father because I knew that’s what my heart needed to be able to notice him more every single day; the adventure I was craving didn’t satisfy me fully. That took time for me to notice. As soon as I began to rest in the mundane so I began to find him in my new normal. He showed me all the crazy ways he has been working here, the fun moments, the laughs, the deep love and compassionate heart I have for the kids at the school I teach at and small seeds that are being planted everywhere. He’s been too good to me and too many times I didn’t notice his goodness but it’s there and it’s so clear to see now and I’m thankful for every bit of it.
