As I type, I‘m currently in the air on my way to Atlanta, Georgia for launch. This morning I said my hardest goodbyes yet in the Houston airport. The reality that I won’t see my sisters for 11 months is barely sinking in. And I’m sure it’ll keep seeping in as I say goodbye to my parents at launch.
I’m not sure what to feel right now. Nerves flooded in last night and through this morning. I keep thinking that I left something important in Texas. I have a knot in my stomach that just won’t go away. I have so many thoughts, yet I don’t think my mind can fully comprehend what I’m about to do. It is finally starting to feel real. And part of that is realizing that I won’t be seeing you for 11 months.
Man, am I thankful for all of you. I have always known that I have a great family and community in Texas, but this process has only reiterated that time and time again.
To my friends:
You have been such a rock for me over the last 7 years. San Antonio has only been the second city I’ve lived in my entire life, and I can only call it home because of you. God has placed all of you in my life for a purpose, and I am so thankful to know you. The Lord has used you to shape and grow me during the most crucial part of my adult life. He used you to speak life into me when the world speaks so many lies every single day. He used you to keep me on the narrow path that many stray from during their college years. I have had so many laughs with you, walked through the many hardships with you, and probably had too many margs and Mexican food with you (nah just kidding, we could never have too much Mexican food). Thank you for loving me even when I am hard to love. When I was impatient, when I wanted solitude, and when I silently dipped out of the group get together to avoid saying goodbye to 30 people. Gosh, I am just gonna miss y’all a lot.
To my family:
I love you guys so much. Saying goodbye was not easy (and will not be easy), and tears are welling up as I type this. I am so incredibly grateful for each of you. I know that this isn’t the ideal situation, with me leaving for 11 months. I know that the distance will be painful at times, but I also know that it will be worth it, because this is what God has called me to do. Even if that means leaving for a while.
In spite of that, I still am in awe with how supportive you all are. You have been so great to me. You have rooted for me, contributed financially, shared every single post of mine related to the World Race, and bent over backwards whenever I needed help with anything. You have encouraged me, even though you’d probably prefer that I stay. You never tried to talk me out of it (only jokingly, which is a given), and I love y’all for that. Thank you for always caring about me and loving me so well, especially during this season of life.
I am excited to start this new walk with the Lord, but I am also sad to leave another walk that has been so dear to me over the last 7 years. I can’t wait to see what He’s gonna do. And I can’t wait to share it with all of you. Love you, and I’ll see you soon.
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