I asked God to break my heart for something specific this year
well
it finally hit me
8 months
8 ministries
hundreds of stories that have broken my heart
but I didn’t feel it
it’s easy to become numb to things you see daily
people who worship carvings
multiple wives
believing in thousands of gods
kids who don’t have pants
clean clothes
shoes
people who sleep on the floor
those possessed
hopeless
alone
I’ve walked through killing fields
where babies were killed against trees
where people were tortured and starved to death
because a group of men thought it was okay
people who sell their bodies
as a last resort
no where else to go
kids who beg on the streets for money
controlled by men
a baby clinging to you, knowing there’s something better out there
families living on the street
cold
in the rain
people dancing for money
women suppressed without a voice
children controlled for their talents
people who hide their true self
putting on a face
shamed by the world
hiding in the darkness
that is slowly killing them
kids whose families are so broken
whose parents gave them away to be married
pregnant
not just one woman’s story
but many
7 kids before 30
6 in happy homes now
1 still on the streets
but what did they go through before?
what did they see? experience? do?
their ‘could of beens’ are reality for others
I’ve seen their possible life
living on the street
begging for food
money
turning to alcohol
used by men
people
I see it now
I have faces
names
and stories
of those whom I cherish
& I love dearly
who could of gone down those roads
if they weren’t chosen by such a wonderful loving family
their lives could look so different
I’ve heard it all
seen faces
but it never really hit me
until today
these stories belong to people
people who God created
who He loves deeply
I felt like I was hit by a ton of bricks
tears flooding down my face
for all that I’ve seen
and heard
I knew that it was sad
but I was numb
I couldn’t feel all that
not on purpose
just by instinct
it would break me
into a million pieces
day to day
as you’re living your life
people are stuck in a nightmare
abused
alone
each month we leave
but things are still happening
the kids from Cambodia are still at the beck and call of an evil man
the people of India are shamed
people don’t have enough money to eat
the kids and families in Myanmar still live on the streets
begging for food and money
the girls in Nepal are still dancing for a living
prostitutes stand on corners to make money
and so many more stories
it finally hit me
s i n
and how it has affected the world
I cried
I prayed
I repented
and it’s sucks
but God is still good
I don’t have the answers
to why
but I know that God is still good
I don’t have answers
I don’t have solutions
but I don’t need them
I need to listen to the Holy Spirit
to do what He tells me
to bring light into this broken world
even though it is so, so broken
God is so, so good
I challenge you to make a difference
wherever you are
whatever you do
whatever your story is
use it
change the world
make the world a better place
and if you listen to Jesus while you do it
big things will happen
mountains will move
ask God where He wants your life to go
let Him guide you daily
and let’s change the world
