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So every few months we have debrief. It is a time not only to learn but to reflect on our month.
We were given the space to reflect-I wanted to share with y’all what Jesus has been teaching me-from Cote d’Ivoire to Thailand.
So, here is goes.
Wow oh wow this has been quite the journey thus far. Wouldn’t you say? I am starting to hear your voice and see you more and more each day. In your creation. Flowers. Trees. And the lovely people you have made.
You have shown me that I am chosen. I am loved. You picked ME. You made ME so intricately. You made me in my sweet mamas womb. You don’t want me to pick myself apart. No sir, you do not. You want all of me. Forever. And. Always. You want me to give me all to you. Somehow I am quoting John Legend now-but it’s true. You want my heart and soul and all my actions. I mean you made me so it’s the least I can do.
I’m still learning why you made me and my purpose in life. One thing I know for sure is that you made me to love others. To shine to them. Show them they are loved.
Beautiful.
Chosen.
Perfect and flawless in your eyes, Father.
You want me to love each and every soul around me. To see the good in them. To show them themselves in Your eyes. Why you made them. Their purpose. Their life.
Sometimes that means slapping them when they make comments about their appearance. Sometimes that means to speak life into them.
To SEE them.
To make others feel heard.
To feel seen.
I know what it’s like to feel invisible. I’ve gotten pretty good at it. I don’t like the spot light. But you have me dancing in the palm of your hand. In a white dress. With flowers in my hair.
I am chosen.
I am a light.
You see me.
Each and every day I fight to be seen. I fight to be heard. Not because I want to be seen or I want to be heard BUT because it is YOU in me that deserves to be seen and deserves to be heard.
I can’t put a bush over my light oh, no, I’m gunna let it shine. Let it shine. Let it shine. Let it shine. It’s not my light to shine-it is yours Jesus. It is a disservice to the world to cover it up. To hide under a bush. On a couch. In a crowd.
Jesus in me is pushing me to be seen and heard. To make friends everywhere I go. To be like Jesus. To love Him radically and to love others radically. Fully. To see them and to hear them.
I know what it’s like to be unseen and unheard-and I want to fight for those around me to not feel like this as long as I can freakin help it.
I am a fighter.
A warrior.
A gem.
A beautiful flower.
God chose me and He wants to use me. All of me. Each step I take should be a step closer to Him and for Him. My purpose on this earth is to fight for His name to be heard. To be seen.
I feel something in me. Something changing. Something growing. I know for sure it’s the Holy Spirit.
Why? Because I tend to hide under a bush, but He wants me to shine His light. Not my own. I get so excited around new people I just want to word vomit the gospel to them-do I always do it? No. Do I still hold me tongue because I’m scared? You bet.
But each day I am taking a new step towards Him. Boldly. Confidently. And in love. No, I don’t have this down. No, I’m not some saint and I am so far from perfect. But Jesus sees me. He knows me. And He wants to use me.
Let Him use you too.
Thank you Beloved Daughters for walking through this season with me. 🙂
