I have a lot of thoughts about going home. I’m excited for it honestly. I have very intentional relationships with people back home and I’m excited to tell them about my life these last 9 months and I’m even more excited to hear about theirs. So much has happened and it’s hard to communicate with time difference and limited wifi. It also will be nice to have more freedom when I get home. On the race we have rules on certain things. We always have to have a buddy if we go out somewhere, our shorts have to be 5 inches above the knee and we can’t wear thin strap tank tops or dresses and a few more rules that I’m not going to mention cause I can’t think of them right now hahah. BUT, my point is.. I like having freedom with what I wear, where I go and with whom I’m going with. I understand the rules that AIM has set for us but I just like having freedom with things. I’m also excited to share with everyone what the Lord has been teaching me. I know I’ve told some things through blogs but I’ve also been saving a lot of stories because I’d much rather tell them in person. (One of the stories is about my experience with PVT because it’s too much to write out and I’d much rather say it all in person because it was the coolest thing EVER!!). I’m also looking forward to what God has for me at home and how He’s going to use me in my community. I got a job as a counselor this summer for Lake View Church Camp and I’m beyond pumped for it!! I can’t wait to love on those kids and tell them how much the King loves them and how worthy they are. It’s going to be so much fun! So yeah, those are the main reasons why I’m excited to get home.
I’m also a little nervous about going home. It’s going to be a huge change going from living with my team and seeing them every single day and night to not seeing them at all. I’m not happy about that and I wish we could all live by each other but that’s just not realistic. It’s going to be a struggle living in a different community of people. We are very encouraging to each other and I know it’s going to look a little different at home. Also, I’m coming back as the same person but I’ll be on a very different spiritual level than I was before I left 9 months ago. I’m sure people will have a lot of expectations of me and they’ll think of me differently but that’s okay. It’s something I’m going to have to deal with and I’m ready for that honestly, but I don’t know what it’s fully going to look like.
I don’t know, there’s a lot of weird things that have crossed my mind about being home and I won’t know how I’ll feel until it’s actually happening. Ya know? I’m excited for everything to come but I’m also nervous about a lot of things. I guess we’ll just see how it all plays out! I was talking to God the other day about it and He showed me a vision of me going home to everything and I thought I was going to do it by myself but then she showed me that He was right next to me the whole time. So that was reassuring.
Welp, those are just a few of my thought and it’s 11:14pm so I’m tired and I’m going to go to bed now. Thanks for reading! I’ll try and blog more, I know I’ve sucked at it the last month or two but I’ll try harder for you all 🙂 have a great day my friends.
God bless. xoxo
