BROKENNESS. Something I don’t like talking about with God. It hurts. It’s painful. I don’t like discussing it with anyone. But this past week God made me realize He can turn my brokenness into something good. Going to Him with brokenness has made me closer with the Lord.
Not good enough. Worthless. You’re personality is way too much for that person to handle. That person is so much better than you, maybe if you were more like them they’ll like you.
These are lies that the Devil puts in my head. Do I believe them? Yep.
There have been so many times that I’ve let those lies get to me. Satan has been putting lies in my head again and again for the last week and it’s brought up things that I’ve tried to ignore from my past.
In a previous blog I mentioned that I bundle up a lot of my feelings and try to ignore them. Recently something happened to me and I felt worthless again and I started believing the lies more. They flooded through my mind and it brought up things that I’ve tried to ignore from past experiences.
My brokenness hurt. It was painful, but I’m thankful God brought it up in my life. Just one small situation caused so much pain so I asked God to help me find the root of it. He reminded me of situations I’ve been in where people leave me to go hang out with other people because I’m not good enough for them or other people are more fun than me. These are all situations that I tried forgetting about but I can’t bundle things up forever because when small situations happen like this then all the hurt from past experiences come with it.
God has revealed all of this to me and it’s super cool. He’s allowing me to be free from all of this and I’m choosing to finally give Him this brokenness that I’ve stored up inside me. It’s still a work in progress but I’m trying my hardest to give it all to Him.
