It’s so funny yet beautiful how the Lord reveals not only himself to you, but also WHO you are. Sitting in the presence of the Holy God can look so different to each and every one of us because he has created each of us as unique and special in our own ways. This fact alone shows us so much of God’s character and who he is, that he would take the time to not only make us as “one of a kind” creations but also that he chooses to love each and every one of us in the way we that we individually need.
I love this part about my dearest Ktizo (Greek for Creator), and loved even more how during last week at World Race Training Camp he took the time to show me how he sees me. Spending multiple accounts sitting at his feet waiting for him to speak to me he gave me two beautiful representations of myself in this season of my life. The Lord first came to me through art. I at times feel as though my artistic ability is lacking and it often keeps me from being open to this pathway God may want to speak to me. However, with an open heart I allowed God to speak through me through paint and in it he brought to light the struggle I have been continually struggling in. The struggle of being who the world wants me to be and walking in how God sees me.
Every day, upon opening my eyes, this choice becomes evident and I am pressed to make a decision. To be the “me” that is insecure, full of self doubt, uncertain, weak, and people pleasing. This “me” isn’t really me at all but the person that was created by sin entering into the world, the one who doesn’t allow God’s love to shine in me and through me. This “me” is influenced by the standards of the world and will do anything to feel some sort of love and acceptance no matter how small and temporary it may be. This “me” is without love, without peace, and without the holy spirit flowing inside me. Now while upon reading this it seems as though this form of “me” would be easy to dismiss as something nobody would want to be,yet I still see so many including myself falling into this trap that the enemy feeds us. The devil makes this seem so appealing to us but in the end it’s just an artificial, inferior version of the self that God truly has for us. The other option I have each morning is to be the women God created me to be. This form of me is strong and resilient and full of so much love, light, and peace. And again while this seems like an obvious choice, fighting for this form of me seems so much harder whenever the world constantly tells you something differently. I would like to say I am not alone in this fight to see myself the way God intended me to. When I step out into the world I see people struggling each and every day to step in all that God has in for them and walking in his spirit. The painting the Lord gave me helped express every emotion I felt and helps remind me daily of the work God is doing in me.
While this little moment at camp was such a beautiful reminder of what’s God’s doing in me, he didn’t stop there. In another break out session we were told to sit before the Lord and ask him how he sees us. This time the Lord spoke to me through song. The song the Lord sang to me was a classic 90s R&B song by the infamous De’Angelo. The song is tittled Lady, and the chorus repeats “You’re my lady!” And can I just say that the Lord singing this to me just made my heart skip a beat and overcame me with so much joy and happiness. The fact that he thinks of me as so special and beautiful in every way and that I am without a doubt HIS lady is such a sweet gesture of love that nothing else can compare to. I think it’s easy living in a world literally obsessed with the “fairy-tale” type love to get distracted by longing for someone to just “get you,” whenever the creator has always gotten you and has called you his own before you were even made into existence.
The Creator is full of so much love and acceptance and he sees us for who we really are and still wants us. Not only that but he wants us to know him and find who we truly are along the way. You can try and prove me wrong if you’d like, but I’m without a doubt sure that you will never be able to find a love as beautiful as this no matter where in the universe you look for it. I pray that each and every one of you reading this takes the time to sit at his feet and ask him to show you, “who you are now and where he wants to take you,” and then ask him to show you, “what you are to him?”
Peace and Blessings,
Kierra
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