If anyone knows me they know how passionate I am about loving people. At times, I come off very hard but I’m probably one of the most empathetic people you’ll ever meet. I’m the type of person who starts sobbing in random commercials because the joy and/or sadness of the individual in the advertisement just pulls at my heartstrings like no other lol. While this is a trait about myself that I absolutely adore, mostly because I feel like it gives me a glimpse of what God’s heart is like, it also comes with some negative downsides as well. Because my heart for people is so big, I find myself wanting to dabble in anything I can get my hands on, when it comes to loving people. I will be the first to stand up to fight for individual’s equality and worth as human being, wanting to march, stand with and rally behind the masses. My passion also leans towards children and young people alike, wanting just to love and cherish any soul I encounter. And the list of my love for people just goes on and on.
However, as I cook, clean, and nurture my little ones at work who have close to nothing I realized how completely overwhelming it all becomes. As if the world has so many problems that I just want to help be a part of but I can’t do it all, especially all on my own. I have been completely blessed that God has put all these desires to be his hands and feet in my heart but I’ve completely missed the fact that he needs to be at the center of it all. I forgot that he is the one that orchestrates it all perfectly and I am just an instrument to be used for his purpose.
Today the Lord in his ever so soft, still voice spoke to me. He felt my weary heart and told me to just slow down and be still. The same command he has told me time after time again. The same command that in the busy-ness of this world I have completely forgotten. I wanted so badly to be a do-er and to act to enact change, and it was becoming way too much to handle. Within the next month or so I was trying to be able to continue working with kids in the foster care system, fundraise for the World Race, begin my internship at the Lubbock Rape Crisis Center, while still studying for the LSAT to make it into law school to hopefully one-day fight for the human rights of individuals. I was literally trying to put the world’s problems all on my shoulders whenever it really isn’t even my cross to bear in the first place. The Lord in his precious word says in Mathew 6:34, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Worrying about and overbearing yourself with the world’s problems will not get anything accomplished. My God is bigger than all these problems and he will see to it that his will, will prevail. So, for the person who is out there trying so hard to do it all, STOP! Take a second and be still before the Lord and allow him to guide your steps, let him use you as his hands and feet. He knows what he’s doing, he knows what this world needs and you only need to trust in all that he is.
