There is a trail of termites outside our house, they all follow each other into a little hole in the wall. But, if you step in the middle of their trail they get really confused and start scrambling in so many different directions. Otherwise, they all go in one direction all day, everyday.
Stagnant.
These termites all have a place to go, a job to do. And they do it everyday. They go through the motions of each and everyday.
Stagnant.
Until a human accidentally (or sometimes on purpose) steps in their trail. Just to see what will happen.
Chaos.
A trail made over a course of days, weeks, months, maybe even years…destroyed. From the outside looking in, it’d be easy to go around. But for a termite that’s been following the same trail over and over and over again…
Chaos.
Wildly enough, within a matter of moments I realized that I had become a termite. Following a path. Mindlessly. Knowing I had a job to do and knowing exactly how to do it. I was going through the motions of life, of missions, of community, of anything.
Stagnant.
But, God stepped in the way of my trail. My mindless everyday motions now destroyed. The question that was brought to my mind was this “Where will you go now? What are you going to do?”
Chaos.
He gave me two choices.
1. go around, create a trail right around and others will follow you.
2. allow me, Abba, to guide you and create a new, better path, for you and for others around you.
Others will follow either way, but do it on your own and it will fail, or become mundane…AGAIN.
Chaos.
Maybe you know what it’s like to know the right choice and yet still feel like your world is coming unglued. Maybe you don’t. But here I am knowing the right choice but feeling like I can’t make either one. I have never wanted to be a leader, but I have never wanted to be a follower. God has asked me to die to myself and become His follower…by leading others to Him. He’s asked me to create a trail WITH Him so others can see what it is to walk with Abba and move from their stagnancy to a place of peace. He doesn’t desire us to walk in a place of chaos. He asks us to trust Him to lead the way.
So here’s me, trusting Him in the midst of my chaos, moving from a place of stagnancy to…
Peace.
