God said: Leave America and serve the least of these.
I said: Okay…when? where? why now?
God said: Trust me. Go. I will provide.
I said: I don’t know. Obviously I want to…but now? C’mon God. I’m in college. We don’t have a lot of money. My family is taking care of my dad’s parents. Like really? Are you positive you need me right now?
God said: Trust me. Go. I will provide.
Well God, I did that. I put all my trust in you. I trusted your will to be done in me. I gave you everything. I gave up school, I have been raising money like a mad-man, We have in-home nurses for my grandad. All the things I worried about you have provided something to meet the need and guide me to this calling. wow. honestly. just wow. I am blown away.
Yet here I sit…sad and confused. I look at my Facebook daily and everyday I see another pal getting engaged or married or figuring out all da things they want out of college or finding a real job and then here I am single, not going to college, barely having anything except a summer lifeguarding job. Why do I feel like this? Most importantly, why am I allowing satan to take this much control and make me feel like this.
I’m literally living in a dream right now. I am fundraising for an amazing opportunity to serve people and live with a heart abandon and fully reliant on God for everything. I am taking a break from college to pursue where God is calling me with no distractions — no school (that in itself should be good enough), no boys, nada /// zip /// zilch /// nothing. Nothing but big love for a big God and some cool pals that love God too. I am single and blessed by countless friends who love me so good and pray for me and support and encourage me. My grandparents are participating in stuff for me which is a pretty darn big deal if you knew them. I have so many. SoOOo MaNY blessings to be grateful for.
I am thankful for this beautiful life. I may have absolutely nothing figured out but God has a plan and has had a plan for my life for ages and I am going to rest in that encouragement as I patiently await training camp which is in 48 days, and then launch in September!! I am called to a life so much greater than this. So far out of my comfort zone and so far in full reliance with God. Thankful is just a scratch on the surface of how I am feeling today with this newfound hope.
