Sometimes you think you’ve got life figured out. And then you run into a glass door with your face (not that I’m speaking from experience or anything…).
Now most people don’t actually run into doors in a literal sense (except yours truly I guess), but they still run into something, a roadblock, an obstacle, whatever. And when that happens, you have two choices: hit the wall and stop or find a way to get passed it. You can go over it, under it, around it, through it, hurdle it, etc. All that matters is that you find a way to move beyond this obstacle.
The current obstacle in front me is the end of the World Race. I find myself feeling frustrated and irritable but those are just surface level. Thlet are hiding much deeper feelings of sadness and fear. I don’t want this to be over. I don’t want to say goodbye to these people. I’m afraid that I’ll never find a community that will accept me and love me the way that I have been loved this year.
Amidst all of these feelings, I took a walk to an old church with a cross overlook. I sat at the foot of the cross and prayed and worshipped the Lord. I asked Him for help. I sat there and wrapped my arms around the cross. I sat there clinging to that cross and I realized why I was struggling.
I have been clinging so tightly to the World Race and that’s the problem. I need to cling to the Lord.
He is the same everywhere and I need to trust that He will provide the things I need. He will give me community. He will give me people who love me. He will guide me when I’m lost and comfort me when I’m sad. The Lord is good and I must trust that His goodness isn’t going to stop when I get off the airplane in the US.
This experience is winding down by my love for the Lord is not. And His love for me never will.
I will be back in the US in just two days and I can’t wait to see everyone! That being said, I know that many people have tons of questions and I would love to answer them in an upcoming Q&A blog! You can comment questions, message them to me, call me, whatever works for you and I will do my best to answer them!
