Last night came the phone call I was waiting for but dreading. But even through my grief over the loss of my grandmother, the Lord is still good.
Yesterday morning, I went on a sunrise hike. The whole time I was taking to God and as the darkness turned to light, He kept telling me that His light would always overcome the darkness in my life. He knew (of course) that I was entering into a time of grief and darkness and He reminded me that the sun will still rise tomorrow. His light will overcome the darkness. I got to witness a beautiful sunrise on the morning of my grandmother’s last day on Earth and somehow I knew. I knew as I sat at the top of that mountain that yesterday would be her last day.
I am hurting but not defeated. I am grieving but not angry. God is giving me peace and comfort that can only come from Him. He is bringing light to the darkness that seemed impenetrable. The darkness that threatened to overcome me has no power over the Lord. In all things, God is still good. My joy is never-ending in the Lord and the enemy cannot take it away. Even when he tries to feed me lies by making me feel selfish, convincing me that I should have been home with my family or making me think that I could have done something to help, I will not believe him. Not today Satan! Not today or any other day because all of my joy, my hope, my strength, and every part of my life is in the hands of the Lord. He has called me to be in Ecuador at this time despite the grief my family is walking through and I can do nothing but trust Him.
Thank y’all for your prayers and kind words. Please continue to pray for my family back home as they begin to process this loss and makes arrangements for the future. And please pray that I can support them and they will feel my love from afar.
