For the longest time, I thought i was doing something wrong. I have been a believer since I was a tiny tot. And now, I’m 18. If anyone should be able to discern the spirit- I should.
I never had these big revival moments where the spirit shook the deepest parts of me.
well,
at least thats what I thought.
For me, personally, the spirit doesn’t speak in big or flashy ways. He speaks subtly. sweetly. usually through every-day things.
i’ve learned to hear and cherish the specific way the spirit shares with me.
Just the other day, I got another message.
I was sitting down with my family and we decided to have a movie night. I got to choose the flick. My choice- Soul Surfer.
I’ve watched this movie over & over & over again(its a personal fav). It’s good every, single, time. But, It has never hit me quite the way it did this time.
Bethany is on her board waiting on the next wave with her bestfriend and her(friends) family. Just another day of surfing- It could not be more mundane. And out of the blue, the shark attack happens and changes it ALL. You see the shark come out of the water and within an instant her arm is gone, and all you see is red. Everyone kicks into high gear. “get to the reef, we’ve got to get to the reef”. Bethany has just been attacked by a shark. Her life is on the line. And she’s paddling herself back to the shore, all the while whispering “please Jesus. get me to beach Jesus. please Jesus.”
That. Out of all things. That 3 minutes of a movie, sitting on the living room floor- the spirit spoke to me.
In the moment where her life is in the balance- ALL she wanted was jesus.
How, beautiful, is that.
I sat there, getting choked up at how desperately she cried out to him. and at the same time, she spoke to him like an old friend- who has never let her down.
THAT. That is the jesus i’ve been praying to be utterly dependent on.
Thats my biggest prayer for these 9 months and beyond.
Wake up, dependence on God.
Every, single, action, mirrors my complete surrender to Christ.
Through that movie clip, the spirit whispered “take that moment of her desperate dependence, and model it into your everyday life.” “You can do it.” “He is close to you, always”.
The spirit speaks sweetly to me- I am ever so thankful for those moments.
heres a link to the clip i’ve been talking about- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_nqRryzqRfA
maybe the spirit speaks to you through it, like it did me.
