We are living in a cute little log cabin surrounded by fall colored trees. I’m living with my team and one other team, an all girls team called Vessel. They’re so fun.
We have to shop and cook for ourselves these next two months which is also so fun. Collectively we make menus each week of what will be made- TONIGHT IS MAC&CHEESE.
Ministry here is really anything and everything you could possibly think of. I like to call it a ministry buffet- you get a lil bit of errythang.
Yesterday we all served by planning and running their youth group here called Fire By Nite. From games to worship to sermon to alter call. It was amazing. The game we decided on was that one where you put a cookie (we choose off-brand Oreos called “spheres” LOL) on your forehead and try to bring it to your mouth without using your hands. A true classic. Then worship, the slideshow with the lyrics didn’t show up on the screen but the Lord gave me this joy and gratitude that we don’t need a fancy slideshow or a stage or cool lights or a concert-esque scene for worship or comfy chairs to sit in. All He wants are willing hearts- He doesn’t need anything else to do what only He can do. Dang I’m so gosh dang grateful for that. Kinda like a weight lifted off knowing that because I have Him I lack nothing. phew.
Nick killed the sermon on God’s grace. SO P O W E R F U L. Talking about no matter how hard we try to be good enough we will always fall short of perfection and recognizing we often unconsciously tell God we know what’s best for us.
So. Much. Truth.
While we were planning the schedule for last night God gave me a vision of us world racers lining up in the front so that anyone who wants prayer could come up and receive. So we fit that into the schedule thank God.
It was my favorite part.
In all honesty when I brought it up and they asked if I wanted to be one of those people to go up to give prayer I instantly got hella nervous. What do I say? I could ruin someone’s life if I messed this up. I do not know enough to be remotely qualified to do this. Ahhhhhh
The rest of the day I was planning out what I was going to pray. I came up with something and when I’d practice reciting it I forgot completely what I came up with. I’m screwed.
I tried not to think about it and had the mentality that I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it. maybe.
Sure enough the time came. I stood up off my feet and walked to the place I was meant to stand.
I gave up.
Standing there admitting I am defeated. Declaring that I am fully confident that I, Grace, can not do this. Surrendering to be utterly desperate for God to move. He had to. Or else I’d be screwed because I had nothing planned, or at least planned but completely forgot what I planned 2 seconds later.
It was silent for probably 2 minutes, no one came up because they were nervous to be the first one. I prayed that God break down walls in the name of Jesus. And of course He did.
A 14 or so year old girl came up to me, I asked her name and she told me I was beautiful and would not stop nervously laughing, it was so cute. I then got down to business and asked what she is struggling with that the Holy Spirit convicted in her heart to come up here. She said she wants to be a singer but she doesn’t know if that’s her calling.
I gave her advice that was all the Holy Spirits doing.
Then she stopped.
She wanted to share something with me but she kept telling me that she doesn’t want me to judge her
I kept telling her I am in no place to judge her. I’m like her-even worse-sin is sin there’s no more sinful than the other.
She went on to tell me something that she’s struggling so hard with.
And I prayed a real bold prayer in front of a one person crowd for the first time in my life.
Another girl came up to me and got straight to the point that she has scoliosis and another back condition. She shared that there’s so much pain she endures not only physically but emotionally because no one understands her pain. Tears streaming down her face I felt God’s heart break for His daughter. Another bold prayer straight from the Holy Spirit was said.
With praying for both of the girls, words just flew out of my mouth. No thought other than surrender. It was completely saturated in the Holy Spirit. Both times. Anointed.
Yea. God is good.
Being so confident that I can not do anything and as a result becoming desperate for God to move is where He is taking me in my journey with Him.
Not sure what else to write, so until next week:) -grace
