One of my biggest struggles is believing that God exists. Straight up.
I’ve felt the presence of the Lord. I’ve heard His voice. I’ve witnessed miracles. I’ve seen Him work radical transformations in my life. But, still, I’m so quick to doubt his existence and to base my faith on whether I can get an answer to “why” and “how” everything works.
Recently, I’ve found myself being very frustrated by the fact that I don’t understand the Lord. I was reading in Colossians and realized that Paul referred to Christ as a mystery.
Paul didn’t understand the fullness of the Lord, either.
Paul, the man that wrote a bunch of books in the Bible. Paul, the man that was persecuted for the sake of the gospel. Paul, the man that spurred on and empowered churches all throughout the nations. Paul, the powerhouse man of God that has been inspiring people for generations.
This same man is the man that couldn’t fully comprehend the Lord. Despite of his lack of understanding, his convictions and faith in the Lord were still so strong that he lived his life fully devoted to his mission.
We so often want to be able rely on the things that our brains can understand, but the Lord is so much bigger than our brains. And I’m so thankful for that! If I could understand the Lord, there would be no more marvel. No more wonder or majesty. I would be able to understand the craziness of the creation of the universe. I don’t think my brain can ever comprehend the mystery of that.
I truly think that we could spend our whole lives investigating every aspect of the Lord and we would never know Him in His fullness. How cool is that?! We constantly get to be learning and gleaning from all of the beautiful things that the Lord is.
So, yeah! There’s just a little sneak peek about what the Lord is teaching me right now! We’re settled into our ministry here and LOVING our time building relationships, painting houses, and organizing bookstores!
