Well guys, I’ve been struggling on what to do my first blog on and this has been running through my head constantly, soooo I’ll share it with you!
So, as you all know, I have decided to take a year off after graduation to follow God’s calling for me to set off to 5 different countries to spread the good word! Before I jumped right into this, I did a tremendous amount of praying about this journey.
When I say tremendous, I promise you not, I think I prayed more than I slept. Which I LOVED!!
God showed me in so many different signs, that He heard me loud and clear! Even though it was lying so heavy on my heart before this, I knew now that I had to do this. I can not even talk about my trip without smiling ear to ear!! All the glory is to God for calling me to grow His kingdom because I have always struggled with stress and worry, but for the first time since I can remember, I have peace!
You would think that with all the craziness of fundraising, packing, vaccinations, and leaving my whole life back home for 9 MONTHS, that this would be the most stressful thing I will ever be confronted with, but its the BEST thing that has been brought upon me. These things will be hard, and I know that. Especially leaving my family and friends, but this is something I feel so strongly about!
What I really want to talk about is how many supports I have behind me! When I announced that I was going on this mission, I was literally in awe. The amount of people who have reached out to me, believing in my vision of making a difference has been heart warming. It has already helped me more than words can describe. With all this support I have had some negativity. Some others on my route have also struggled with this. Some have asked me…
Why do you think that I am capable of this?
Can you really do this?
You won’t last that long.
You’re crazy.
Why can’t you just spread the word here?
Have you even been on a mission trip before?
I could go on and on, but the point is even with all the support that everyone has given me, I continue to let these questions get to me. This is my purpose and that is not changing, but it has made me realize how we as people, do appreciate support, but we are affected more by negativity.
You could have 100 people standing behind you and just ONE against you and you will only worry about that ONE person.
“When the wicked came against me to eat up my flesh, my enemies and foes, they stumbled and fell though an army may encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; Though war may rise against me, in this I will be confident.” -Psalms 27:2-3
This verse was mentioned at church the other day and I believe it was said for a reason. It made me think to myself, why am I allowing these comments “eat at my flesh”? Though some may not believe that I am equipped for such calling that the Lord has called on me, I have to STAND TALL in my faith.
The devil purposely sends people/things to set us back, make us feel unworthy, and ultimately separate us from Christ. I have to stay confident because God will never put us through anything we can not handle. When we at we stay true to what the Lord has told us, no one can face us. The enemies will literally stumble and fall to their knees.
Even though I know this really spoke to me, I hope you can apply this to your own life as you read this. No matter what you are being faced with, whether it is bad friends who may being tempting you into sin or others saying you can not change because you have make mistakes in the past. Please remember that God will love you no matter what you do if you just simply trust in Him!! The devil will try to break you day in and day out, but it is up to you to be strong and not let evil overcome you.
*STAND TALL, FOR THE LORD HAS YOUR BACK THROUGH IT ALL*
