DISCLAIMER: The first two paragraphs of this post are kind of depressing, so bear with me and read on through because it gets better. And thanks for your support!
If you’re ever wondering where to find me, 9 times out of 10 you will catch me lounging and contemplating life. But not in a good way, like my life is all rainbows and sunshine and I’m just innocently wondering “How is my life this awesome?!” Nah. Usually I’m in a “Woe is me” state of mind where I internally complain about how much “my life sucks”.
Now I know just by starting off that way you’ll probably expect some amazing God story that snapped me into new life and instantly changed me forever, but that’s unfortunately (both for your entertainment and my emotions) not the case. I still mope around like I have nothing more important to do (even though I do, one of which is fundraising so feel free to donate!) or thinking that nothing I do matters.
However, I am learning. I have friends, family, and a God who love me–most times more than I love myself. And no matter how much I help other people sort their problems out; no matter how much “good” I do for others: I still have problems that I need to face. And I can’t go it alone. At WR Boot Camp: 2017 they talked a whole lot about community. It actually got quite obnoxious at times. But that’s besides the point. The point is this: we need community, fellowship, in our lives to keep us going when the weight is too much to bear on our own. We learned this literally and figuratively throughout the camp:
Literal: Our teams of 6-8 individuals had to do a 2.2 mile hike with 30+ pound backpacks on in the middle-of-the-day Georgia heat in under 38 minutes. The weight definitely became too much to bear alone for many participants.
Figurative: People were sharing deep, personal emotions and “origin stories” with others to lighten the load they had been taking up themselves for far too long.
So no, my life hasn’t flipped like a switch into 100% Confidence-Boosted Christian mode. But I am growing in my knowledge of how God works in this broken world, and how to trust Him more and more. It’s a long and arduous process, but it’ll be worth it, especially as I continue to grow in Christ through the next 10 months of my life.
Oh yeah, another thing I learned: God speaks to me, and I hear it!
But those are stories for another time. Goodnight (it’s 2:05 AM), and God bless!
You Can’t Always Get What You Want by The Rolling Stones
