What if they all hate me – despite my integrity?
Anguished heart stop breathing.
Then, you only can judge me.
Then I am alone, as I always knew I was.
.
Is this rebellion?
To swim?
.
And in this silence you speak again
While the dread of that norm crashes down on me again
I have tumbled off the cliffs into it’s wake
Pushed
.
Is there humbleness in such a fall?
Or was the edge pride?
.
Reach down and pull me up
My grief is too heavy and I cannot swim
Ive done this too many times before
And now, I give up
Head in the rocks
Rocking with the tide
There is blood now
.
Affliction
.
Be a shield around about me
.
I have found a cave before
At the base of this mountain
Where you pulled me once
Sheltered and pathed with gold in the setting and rising sun
Where the rain falls like a curtain past the entrance and the wind passes like a stranger
Uninvited.
.
Twice.
Three times
I scream “NO SHAME!”
.
Distress
.
You have whispered the entrance to me.
I put my self there
I put myself there.
In your refuge.
All I am there.
Trust you alone, so I have heard.
And there, blind now from the sea,
I take your hand and follow you through the shoals
Uphill
The grass whips at my legs
And I feel the sand sticking to my ankles
Your mercy leads me
Your love whispers
“Come beloved, come.”
Because you have forgiven me.
And surely this will be my story.
.
The tide has beaten me
But you are not afraid.
Psalm 25
