Id planned to write in my journal everyday while helping with training camp.
Id planned to blog about everything.
Id planned to spend time with God alone.
Id planned on seeking more about what the “next” was that He had for me.
Id planned on connecting more with the squads and the AIM staff…(like id planned to spend more time reconnecting with B and C squads at PSL …id loved them so much at my training camp and looked so forward to seeing them again…).
Id planned on…
Id planned on…
And then it was over.
But i want to share one thing that happened that only 3 people know. But i believe it was something God told me to be there for.
Trust and Confidence in God.
I believe that when we walk in obedience, we get to see the faithfulness of God.
And when we experience His faithfulness, we gain trust and confidence in who He says He is.
We gain that, because we know that it is true through our experience.
I had this moment where i started wanting to share something and i felt God telling me to talk to a specific individual…
At first i shoved that away, thinking “nah! – ill just wait and see if theres an opportunity to share.”
But i kept feeling like God wanted me to talk to this individual about sharing it.
So i told God, “Ok, if you want me to talk with them then cause them to come talk with me. If not, then i will trust you and let it go.”
I went about doing my work – and they didnt even come close to approaching me. They were pretty preoccupied doing their own job. So i decided to let it all go and trust God about it.
Later i realized there was something else that i needed to do in the building and i ran up to do it not even thinking about my earlier inclination and as i opened the door, the person i felt God telling me to talk with greeted me!
So i ended up talking with them – …
They werent sure about my request, so they asked me to come back and talk with them later near the end of the night.
Around dinner time i had some extra time and decided to get my journal and spend some time with the Lord.
When i sat down to do so, the person from earlier approached me and asked if i could share more with them of what id mentioned earlier in more detail.
The thing was, they had a small window for me to share – and what they wanted to hear was in my journal, which i had (just by chance) with me since id decided to get it to spend time with the Lord!
I was able to share with them and then a whole other set of events happened because of that moment.
Afterwards i sat and reflected on this…
That God had all along been prompting me and i had chosen to put aside my “how to get this to happen” mindset, to just focus on what i was supposed to be doing and trust God.
And because id done that the Lord had used me in the way i felt He wanted to without me attempting any strategies to get it done…He had used me despite me not making any effort to make things happen at all!
Deep in my soul, i now realize that i can just come into agreement with His desires – if i want to, and then God will bring about the fulfillment of those desires.
And i dont have to attempt anything but obedience and trust.
It can seem like i am disregarding them in my focus of living in regards to all i need to and should be doing. But in reality, my letting go and trusting God – to do in His timing what He hints to me that He’d love me to partner with Him in – is thee enteryway into those plans becomming a reality.
I no longer have to worry or strive.
I just need to trust and obey – and live loving God and loving others – and all Gods promises for my life will come to pass.
