Time trickles over the eaves
it finds all the holes and falls in
filling my buckets
forgotten
yet peered in upon.
i see your eye at the knothole –
yet when i call your name
you refuse to enter.
i feel like a caged animal under your gaze.
.
Wrestling till i have no more strength
Drowning in tears
i tap out Uncle! Uncle!
My hand slaps on the hard cold wood
everyday
it becomes the drumbeat of my soul:
H
E
L
P
.
my sarcastic doubts overcome me
pessimism
negativity
the worst
.
Open the door
i invite you
look at me
without the walls separating us.
kiss my burning forehead
cool the fever dragging me into hell
i hear the cheering of my wrestling partner
i am down
they are making the final count
so open the door
scoop me into your arms
kiss me alive
overcome my foe.
headlock,
i hear the pop of limbs dislocating
the scream of defeat.
i trust in your unfailing love
my heart
bring joy
let a song of goodness
be placed in my mouth
revive me with the sweet kisses of your mouth.
Open your hand
and satisfy the desire
of all things.
gracious
slow to anger
enter my shack.
Defeat my demons.
