This past month, we got the opportunity to serve with IncaLink Ecuador, and through that serve the Camp Hope Foundation. This is a place for children, teens and young adults who have special needs to come and get the physical, emotional and spiritual help that they need to survive. I spent most of the month questioning the Lord on why these friends are the ones who have to suffer, and came up short of many answers, but you can read more about that here.
I am also learning more about what it means to view myself as a ministry, too. I am learning self-care, and the importance of vulnerability and honesty in terms of walking through the dark places that I hoped I could hide forever. Turns out, light overcomes darkness.
Our time this month was good. All 21 people on our squad got to live together, break bread together, worship together. This month, we served our ministries, but we also got to serve each other.
It is crazy to me, because 11 months quickly turned to 10, which has quickly turned to 9. We are in single digits months. The time is moving so quickly that I have begun to pray for time to slow down. There is so much change happening all around us that it is incredible.
Month two was heavy, yet I find myself still learning so much, about myself, about Abba, about my community. These are the top ten things I learned in month two:
- Even in the face of pain and sadness, joy comes in the morning.
- Abba gives new mercies every single day.
- Celebrating the little victories is important, because it shows progress.
- Change doesn’t happen over night and that is okay.
- Walking in truth is incredibly hard, because the enemy wants to have control, but when we choose truth over darkness, we will find freedom.
- The Lord gives me breath and life. He sustains me.
- Surrender is a good thing. I am learning more about what it looks like to surrender my life, and give up control of the things I grasp so tightly.
- The things we want to keep in darkness, are the things that so desperately need the light.
- I need to choose to seek the Father’s face every single day, instead of seeking freedom. Because when I seek His face, freedom comes with it. When I seek freedom, I’m not chasing after the Father’s heart.
- I am a Daughter of the Most High King, and I can never out run His love or protection.
This month turned out to be nothing I expected, but everything I needed. (Isn’t it funny how that works?) Even still, Abba has been so good to me, so kind to me. I just finished my second month of the Race, and there are nine more months for Abba to continue growing me. I am stoked to see what He has prepared for me.
so much love,
car
