The weight of sin is strong, but healing has already come and gone.
Why am I feeling this again? Is it for the Grace? A new lesson?
Or is God just trying to harass me?
My weakness reminds me of my dependence.
My sin, points to the sin-remover. The one who wipes away every blemish and makes me brand new.
Remembrance of sin… “I wish I would have done things differently”…brings forth regret.
But why? Is it for my image? …it should be for the image-maker.
I wanted to get the glory and for others to think I had a good story.
But if I could change my testimony it would be for myself. To boast in myself.
But with my testimony, all I can do is boast in Jesus…
His provision
His Pursuit
His Love.
Should not I think this way?
Should not I want to boast in the God of the Universe? In the redemption through Jesus, and the power of the Holy Spirit.
“If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness” (2 Corinthians 11:30).
If I must boast, I must boast in Christ and in what He was done in my life.
I realized that in my story I can boast more in the Lord of my life!
This should be the case for us all. We are all sinners, separated from God’s perfect and beautiful Glory. “You are my Lord; I have no good apart from you” (Psalm 16:2).
This is something I now am learning to rejoice in! I rejoice in my ability to boast in Jesus, not in myself. To be able to rejoice and praise God and give Him the Glory and fame due to His name.
When we are weak and persecuted and slandered and made fun of and look bad and don’t measure up and experience pain and hard times and death.
“For the sake of Christ, then I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecution, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong” (2 Cor. 12:10)
Sin can bring forth regret, but it can also bring us to a place of weakness, where God gets all the more Glory and others are better able to see the beauty of Christ!!
We should not try to hide our sin from others, but instead should joyfully tell of what Christ did for us, bringing our weakness to the light!
And this is boasting in Christ!
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me…” (2 Corinthians 12:9).
My testimony leads to boasting in the Lord, which makes my testimony a good thing. In my identity in a good reputation I would have had better reasons to boast in myself. If I would have done things “differently” it would be for the glory of myself and my reputation, but because I am a sinner, I can ONLY boast in Christ and what He did for me!
