“…it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not at all be ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death.” –Philippians 1:20
This past year that verse has been a huge staple in my life and in my pursuit of Christ. For the past three years I have been on a journey with God. I went from being in a deep dark place, where my only hope was found in Christ and his calling on my life. I could here him saying, “Calli there is more out there than the way you are living. I am calling you to more.” This calling and conviction lead to a desperate cry to God, whatever it takes Lord, lead me, take me, take charge of my life, and let your plans and calling and desire be the path that I walk. The past three years have been a desperate pursuit. There were times I sinned and continued to fall into the same sin and then there were times that I felt so lonely, so afraid, and so sad, but the one thing that remained was the hope I had in Christ…
And like a punch right to the heart God filled me with so much of the spirit. I was all of the sudden overcome with the glory of God. And that is when that verse became a daily prayer for my life… “I will not at all be ashamed, but with full courage Christ be honored… whether by life or by death.” No matter what God I am yours!! I will be and do WHATEVER you desire!! Use me, take me, I don’t care where it is or who it is, but God in every step of my life I want to constantly be overcome with your glory, I want to constantly be taken outside of my comfort zone, further and further than I thought I could go so that I can experience more of you!!! Lord I am yours!!!!
So with that prayer… where are you calling me in this next step in my life? I do not care where or what it is Lord, but I want you to get the most glory from my life, so take me to the place where I can worship you and rely on you the most… and also take me to where I can be so overcome with who you are, that I am becoming more like you and drawing nearer and nearer to you!!! If that means death or prison or being patient or going way outside of my comfort zone, then Lord I am yours and Your Will be done.
And that’s when God started calling me to the World Race. Through desperate prayer and conversations and rethinking and overthinking, I committed to being a missionary with the World Race to go to 11 countries in 11 months.
I do not know where God is calling me to exactly in this next step of my life. If its to a certain country, certain people, certain place, but I do know right now God is calling me to something beyond my own comprehension- something bigger. He’s calling me up and out and to rise up and to be a light and to share who He is and what He has done. I believe that’s what He is calling us all to.
I am so so excited!!! I am so excited to see what God is going to do. I wait in anticipation of the glory of the Lord that will be revealed to me!!! I know it will not be easy or glamorous, but will be a time where I have to and must seek Christ every-single-day. That pursuit excites me the most!! I know God is going to use this to radically transform my life. To get me out of my comfort zone, to send me to places that I don’t understand, to lean on Him more and more, and to draw closer and closer into a Godly community!
God is SO good. His Glory is SO amazing…. its not just amazing, it literally makes me lost for words. He is so faithful and showed that faithfulness in my own life the last four years more than ever. He has brought me to a place where I have become so overwhelmed with who He is and have fallen so deeply in love with Him. I will do whatever it takes to make that known! To proclaim that to the whole world.
God is going to do miraculous things no matter what because His Will will be done! I am so excited for this journey and this next step in my life! God is so good and I don’t mean that in a cliché way or just to say that. God truly is so breathtakingly amazing, He has and continues to change my life every single day. He gets all the glory for that too! It has not always been easy, but the pursuit of Him has been worth every second.
My hope and prayer is that you will walk this journey with me. Whether that is through prayer, encouragement, or donations. The glory of the Lord is amazing and I wait in eager anticipation at the more of that glory that will not only be revealed in my life, but that will be revealed to you as well!
