So one of the scariest things that has been on my mind since I got accepted to go on the World Race is that I would not say the right thing. I wouldn’t say the right thing on this blog. I wouldn’t say the right thing when I was trying to fundraise support. I wouldn’t say the right thing while I was spreading God’s wonderful news here or while I was on this mission trip. The other night I got to hear some words that I definitely needed to hear.
“God is more interested in us being real than us being right.”
Following the Lord and trying to live out a Christian life is challenging, especially when all you want to do is get it right. Do you ever hear someone speak so beautifully and with so much etiquette about Christ and you’re just off to the side in awe, thinking man they’ve just got it right? This can make me feel like a lesser Christian sometimes. But God does not call us to say what we think He wants us to say. He wants us to be real with Him (because He already knows how we are feeling) and with everyone around us.
So this is me being real. I have been struggling with just plain laziness recently. Laziness with school, my health, pursuing relationships, and most importantly, spending my time with God. On the outside it looks like I am doing everything right in that department. I go to church, I read my bible most mornings, I say a quick prayer and then I go on my way throughout the day wearing my cross necklace and WWJD bracelet because that’s the “right” thing to do. Of course these are good things, but if you are not being real and putting your WHOLE heart into it, then are you really loving the Lord and shining His light? Me being so worried about not saying the right thing to people or what I think that God wants to hear is something that holds me back at times. I do not like to be in vulnerable positions but I know that being real is being vulnerable. Being real is what people want to hear because they can relate. Being real with God grows your relationship with Him. Even though He already knows how you are feeling, He wants to hear it from you.
In Luke 18:9-14, Jesus tells the story of a Pharisee and a tax collector going to the Temple to pray. The Pharisee prayed what he thought was right and what he thought God wanted to hear. The tax collector prayed what was real. He would not even lift his eyes towards heaven while praying because he wanted mercy since he was such a sinner.
This is how we need to be with our relationship with the Lord and in the world, REAL! I know I am being repetitive but it’s something I have to repeatedly remind myself. I am scared about fundraising. I am scared about being in different countries trying to point others to Christ. I get jealous (about lots of things). I am going through a season of laziness.
However, I see so much of God working every single day. He still pulls me towards Him even when I am pushing Him away. He is teaching me that even if I stumble with my words but am speaking the truth and being real, He will get whatever His point is across. My words don’t change people, God does. God is a provider, and I fully believe that He is the one that will be speaking through me and putting His words on my lips.
If you are interested in listening to the sermon that inspired this, which I may be a lil biased but I think you should, I provided the link to the video. Give it a lil view!
Remember God is so good!
