I have sat down to write a blog so many times within this last month. I write a sentence, think I’m on to something, then delete it all because it only really makes sense to me. Or I write something and I don’t feel like it adequately portrays what I am trying to say.
On top of that ministry looks a whole lot different as a squad leader. Yeah, I spend my days with my squad and “do ministry” with them, but my biggest focus is the racers themselves. Because of that I have a hard time writing because I have to be a good steward of the stories of those I’m leading.
Being a squad leader is easily the hardest things I have ever done. I am constantly having to hold myself to a high standard because people are watching. I have to spend more time with the Lord because I run out my own strength so much faster than normal. I have to dig a little deeper into myself because my job is relationship.
Being a squad leader is also one of the best things I have ever done. I get to travel the world, again, but I get to focus on a group of radical Christ-followers. I get to pour into them, but that often times leads to me being more filled up than them. I get to dig deep with them and honestly it’s one of the most beautiful things I have ever experienced.
These past 4 1/2 months have been the most stretching months of my life, and I thank the Lord everyday that I get to spend them with Him pushing me towards the Fathers heart.
I have 4 1/2 more months to go.
I have 4 1/2 months to love a little harder, dig a little deeper, laugh a little louder with GAP T. Yeah, there will be more challenges but this is me saying I’m ready. There will be more hard things, but this is me committing to come at them head on.
I have been blessed to be chosen as a steward of Gap T, and let me tell you, it is an honor every single day. Thanks God for choosing me, and entrusting me with this group of world changers.
All in all, I had no idea what to write for this blog, so I just let the words flow. I hope that this gives you a better idea of why I haven’t been as consistent as my last year, and I hope you still partner with me in prayer for these next 4 1/2 months with Gap T.
Thanks for all the support! It really means the world.
In Him,
Caleb
