So, it’s month 9. Last year I decided to pack up my life into a backpack and travel to 6 countries in the course of 9 months to tell people about Jesus. I arrived to training camp scared to death as to what I was about to walk into. I remember having so much doubts as to wether or not I was making the right decision, I remember thinking that $15,000 was impossible to fundraise and that not going to college right away was a risky thing to do.
And then God gave me $15,000. And He said “Go” and then I said but how am I going to fit in and are these people I’m traveling the world with even going to accept me?? And then He gave me 35 best friends to live with for 9 months. And then I said but how am I going to do anything great?? How am I supposed to lead people to you? And God said, “love”. And wow, how I’ve loved. I’ve loved harder than I ever have before.
These past 9 months have been the most beautiful months of my life, but they’ve also been the hardest. I’m not going to say that there weren’t moments where I wanted to quit. In Zambia I laid on the floor of the metal shack we lived in asking God why He allows suffering. While in Ecuador I spent my months caring for kids with cerebral palsy, lifting a 14 year old into a wheel chair everyday. Every time I’ve questioned God and asked Him why I’ve been sent to places, and how I’m supposed to continue, He’s given me the same answer. Love. The love of Christ is the thing that heals brokenness.
I am so blessed to have spent this season with my team of 5 other girls, who have seen me at my best and at my worst. Who have walked through every difficult and every beautiful moment with me. I love that they are my best friends, but I love the fact that they are my sisters in Christ even more.
Now here I am, at the end. I never thought that God would take me this far. I’ve learned about what it means to completely trust Him. Many people ask what’s next for me, and the truth is that I really don’t know. I will miss this crazy life, and the people I’ve lived it with. but just because this chapter is coming to a close doesn’t mean it’s the end. I can’t wait to see where God takes me next.
Thank you so much to everyone who has supported me through this, it means more to me than I could ever express.
“Look at the nations and watch, and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.” -Habakkuk 1:5
“This love doesn’t leave you to walk a road alone. Oh His voice calls out above the noise. This love doesn’t care if you think you can cut it. He takes you in and He lifts you up, He gives you faith so you can lift your head, and you can run real fast, and you can feel His joy. This love is an everyday kind of love.” -Housefires
