Months has turned into weeks and weeks have turned into days. The time for me to finally meet my squad is almost here and my emotions are running wild.
How can a day that I have waited years for be so close and yet still seem too soon?
Am I really ready? Am I really doing this?
Once again, I am going to be completely honest with you all…I am terrified.
This is normal though, right?
Yesterday, I started thinking though..what if I had gone to college? Where would I be at now?
There it was, staring me straight in the eyes.
Would I be who I am today if I had taken a more normal route?
Is it normal to have lived in Australia/Europe for 6 months straight out of high school?
Is it normal to have been an aquatics director at age 19?
Is it normal to quit your job and serve Jesus in 11 different countries for just 11 months?
Is it normal to put on a brave face because I am terrified of the decisions I have made in life?
Is normal even worth anything though?
According to google, the definition of normal is: conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected
You wanna know what I think?
I’m going to take that as a yes because this is my blog and your reading anyways.
I think that as soon as we decide to say, “YES” to Jesus, our life is no longer considered “normal” according to google’s definitions. Our life is no longer lived for the ordinary, we no longer live a life filled with the things that offer temporary satisfaction, we now are living for something greater. We now live to know God and to make Him known.
Normal may be what the world tries to push at us, but extraordinary is what Jesus offers us with open arms.
Someone pointed out to me something I often forget about myself though..I skipped a stage on the “normal scale”, so while my life right now says to “own a home, get married and have babies” Jesus says, “I promised you that if you chose me, we’d have a great life.” and I think my fortune cookie was right in saying, “You will make many changes before you can settle down happily.”
So here I am, just two years after God promised me that we would live a great life together, preparing to meet a whole world of new people right after I meet my squad for the very first time and that terrified feeling inside me is just fueling the fire. 
