Dear, My Restless Heart,
The heart that keeps on giving out of itself without any care or thought. That sees the greater need and comfort of others than in yourself. While you have sought the strength for other people, you have forgotten to give yourself a little bit of that strength also.
When your heart is in full swing; at one with the Lord, it is fierce. It is loyal. It is passionate about the things of Christ. It is compassionate to the people of this world and their wellbeing.
In this season it has become more fragile than ever, you have been bent and broken into a new place, a place that is unfamiliar and unknown. Where it has been comforted before, it’s now become a fight to stay above the waters, where wave after wave rises up against you; waves of uncertainty, doubt and weariness.
The way that it once was is no longer comforting and fulfilling. A new path and rhythm is set before this restless heart, and the invitation into this place is wide open, but your afraid, you don’t fully trust this guiding of your way, why? because you are tired.
“Take courage my heart, stay steadfast my soul, HE is in the waiting, hold on to your hope, as your triumph unfolds, HE is never failing.”
Remember that strength you found and gave to others comes from the LORD Almighty. Now, now my restless heart, you get to learn the rhythm of selflessness…..for yourself, and no one else. The truth and verdict is in, you now will see the Lord intervene as you give way to worrying about everyone else, to even worrying about yourself and how you are perceived.
It is time to hang up all old ideas and thoughts that by continuing this way will mend and fix your heart. It is time to lean into the presence that is ultimate and lasting; that is where true rest and peace come from.
Seek out those sweet spots again with the Holy Spirit, the place where all things of this world wash away and you can ‘Be’, be held and be comforted. He is running out to you, to catch you and save you from the drowning.
“The LORD is my light and my Salvation – whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life – of whom shall I be afraid? When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear, though war break out against me, even then I will be confident.
One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek, that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek Him in the temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.
Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me: at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will make music to the LORD. Hear my voice when I call O LORD: be merciful to me and answer me. My heart says of you “seek his face”. Your face LORD, I will seek.
Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger; for you have been my helper. Do not reject me or forsake me O God my Saviour! Teach me your way O LORD, lead me in a straight path, because of my oppressors. Do not hand me over to the desires of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me, breathing out violence.
I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD, be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.”
Psalm 27
I would really appreciate your prayers on all things fundraising, as it stands right now, my last and final goal is to be fully funded by the end of January, that’s five or so weeks away. I would really love your prayers and consideration in donating towards this goal of $18,000, as it stand I am $6000 away. I would really love if you wanted to give a gift to me this Christmas that this would be the best way to do it, even if it is $10/£10 I would be so blessed by it. Thank You 🙂
Merry Christmas to you all, I hope that it is amazing and joyful!
